Warm Fuzzies

Aren't warm fuzzies the best? I feel like I've gotten so many of them lately ~ but I got one of the best ones yesterday. One of the many girlfriends that I have that is suffering through infertility got a positive beta (pregnancy test) yesterday. She's been down this road for years - and she's suffered through many early pregnancy losses. But we have a good feeling this time for her. Prayers are being answered and that is the best warm fuzzy anyone could ask for.

She's been on my mind all night long - this was her 8th cycle; and her beta is so high, it's almost off the charts! A good beta number at 18 days after egg retrieval is anything over 100. Her number is 2850! Now, with triplets, my number was only 1204 ~ I can't even imagine what is growing in that belly of hers! I know she must have such mixed feelings today - she's got to be so full of excitement she's bursting, but at the same time, with a number like that, it's a bit scary too. They put two embryo's back so in theory, if there are more than two, it would mean that there was some egg splitting going on. Well, we know how that works!

This is such a scary time for IVF'ers though. The period in between the positive beta and the first ultrasound is the toughest part. It really is. And it's a good two weeks of waiting, wondering and speculating about every little twinge and symptom. Especially when someone like her has experienced all of her losses right in this time frame. She has had good beta's going in, and when it comes to the first ultrasound, things fell apart. As excited as we are for her, it's a fine line to know just how excited to be in front of her ~ understanding completely that until she sees a heartbeat, it just won't be real yet. As we always say, it would be so nice to be one of those people who just finds out they are pregnant and that's the end of it. But going through the blood tests every other day for a week and waiting for that first u/s makes it so nerve wracking. All we can do is help her "wait" and keep her positive. This has GOT to be her time. She's the same one that cycled with me when I got pregnant with the trips and she found no heartbeat - on the same day that we saw three heartbeats. It just didn't seem fair that day.

My other warm fuzzy today was my cute husband who continues to wait on me hand and foot each morning and night ~ without fail. As hard as this can be on families, there's no bigger blessing than rallying together to get these babies here safely.