What a year it's been. For the sake of posterity, here's our year, in a nutshell....the good, the bad & the ugly. Thankfully, we had a LOT of good, a little bad, and not much ugly. We are feeling very lucky & blessed. We are looking forward to a GREAT 2009!
January 2008
JD had surgery to remove his epidermal cyst on his left eye
No more morning bottles; by end of month, no more bottles at all
JD had a new found love for his blankie
We had Verizon FIOS installed at home
JD walked most of the time; started standing from middle of floor on own
Both kids started using forks at meals
My Aunt Kathy came for a fun visit
We had our furnace replaced - ouch
The kids started their first Kindermusic class - first "school" experience
February 2008
Cole had surgery to get ear tubes
Cole started walking & talking immediately after tubes were put in
Shoe sizes: JD 5.5w & Cole 4.5
Spent a wonderful weekend away at Benny's Landing with my BF from college
Both kids babbling - "no-no", "push", "yes"
March 2008
Cole cruising furniture and taking a few steps
Both have molars coming in
Went to an Easter festival in the SNOW
Both kids know animal sounds; vocabulary expanding; can understand simple commands; know body parts, and say hello and goodbye; blowing kisses
Cole learned to throw a ball from sit (hasn't stopped since)
April 2008
Refinanced our home
Spent an amazing girls weekend in Annapolis with my college girls - SO FUN
Cole learned to climb jungle gym in backyard
Cole started walking
2nd Round of Hand, Foot, Mouth Disease
Started volunteering in the NICU
Kids started swimming lessons
We added another boy to the family - my sweet nephew Connor was born!
May 2008
I entered my 39th year of life
JD - 24 pounds, Cole - 20.7 pounds
Spent a WILD weekend in NOLA with good friends
June 2008
Spent a fun week in OBX with our family
JD running everywhere
Both kids putting 2 words together, repeating EVERYTHING
Spent a short fun weekend at Deep Creek Lake with our family
July 2008
Cole discharged from PT; still in OT monthly
August 2008
Enjoyed watching the 2008 summer olympics
Evicted the bat colony in our attic, for the 2nd time
Boys first boat trip to Glass House Island on the Magothy River
First Navy game with the boys - they loved it!
JD & Cole turned TWO
JD 25 pounds, Cole 22 pounds
September 2008
Spent a weekend in Dewey Beach during Hurricane Hanna with MOMs gals
Aunt Kathy came for another fun visit - first zoo trip with the kids!
Cole got a clean bill of health from ENT & hearing specialist
Both kids know their colors and can count to 10; they LOVE reading
The Little Einsteins & Diego are the favorite cartoons
October 2008
Went camping with friends at Yogi's Jellystone Park in Hagerstown, MD
Found out Jessica was leaving us in 6 weeks
Started visiting schools for kids
Flu bug hit our house with a vengeance
Cole spent a night in the hospital for dehydration;
November 2008
Took kids to Willow Oaks Farm to "walk to the North Pole"
Attended my Grandfathers 93rd? Birthday Party at nursing home - first time kids met their only living Great Grandfather
I went to Seneca Lake, NY for a 36 winery 2 day wine binge
My Great Aunt Marge died - the last living relative on my Dad's side
Obama won the Presidential election
Kids talking in sentences and keeping us laughing all of the time
December 2008
Kids started school at Bay Country
Changed work schedule to 3 full days per week instead of 5 partial days
Mom Wells had successful radiation on her brain neuroma
Cole discharged from the Infant & Toddler Program
Flu hit our house with a vengeance (again)
Kids enjoying school and doing well - Cole still having a bit of trouble at drop off but after a minute or two, is fine for the day;
We spent New Year Eve with good friends and welcomed a new adventurous 2009!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Sunday, December 28, 2008
He's a natural...
We're not sure if he's destined to be a football, basketball or baseball player - but he's got some early aspirations.
This video is what Cole describes as "playing Redskins". If you can hear him as he chatters, that's what he's saying. You'll notice his squat about halfway through which is his version of hiking the ball, then running and falling down repeatedly. He did this for no less than 15 straight minutes yesterday...the only thing that would have made it better was if he had his new Redskins jersey on.
He also tried out his new t-ball set and he loved it. He crushed the ball across the yard on his first try. He may be a lefty?!
This video is what Cole describes as "playing Redskins". If you can hear him as he chatters, that's what he's saying. You'll notice his squat about halfway through which is his version of hiking the ball, then running and falling down repeatedly. He did this for no less than 15 straight minutes yesterday...the only thing that would have made it better was if he had his new Redskins jersey on.
He also tried out his new t-ball set and he loved it. He crushed the ball across the yard on his first try. He may be a lefty?!
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells
A little Jingle Bells action for ya - JD loves to sing...he's a little rusty on the words though. He's helping me vacuum in prep for our company - kinda like whistle while you work....
Hospital Christmas
While most of us are enjoying the holidays at home with our families, there are many people who are not as lucky and are having to be in the hospital for Christmas. Particularly in my thoughts today are those pregnant mammas that are on bedrest - and the parents of new babies who are in NICU. Holidays spent in the hospital are no fun...and quite depressing frankly. For anyone who has had to spend the holiday there, you can attest. Many of them had grand visions of what their 2008 holidays would be like while they were happy, beautiful pregnant people...unfortunately, somewhere along the line, that changed and they are unexpectedly stuck in the hospital incubating their fragile babies, or visiting their fragile babies bedside as they cling to life in NICU.
This is just a shout out to those people to let you know that you hold a special place for me today while you are spending your time within closed walls of AAMC (or elsewhere). It's not easy - and you'll have a different appreciation for holidays from here on out, I assure you.
Our NICU parent support group has set up a breakfast for the NICU parents this morning. We are hopeful that we have a good turn out - as many of our volunteers have had to spend holidays on bedrest and/or in NICU at some point. It's certainly not the same as enjoying your family and friends, wonderful food, festive music, christmas smells of candles and pine, and all of the other good parts about the holidays. At the very least, we hope to allow the current NICU families to feel a little bit of Christmas and some parental support from those who have 'been there and done that'.
Although I won't be attending due to this cold and cough I acquired this week, I know that my fellow volunteer families will offer a wonderful support day for these parents, with lots of hope for a bright future for their children and families. Next years Christmas will be much different for them once their miracle babies have been released from the hospital and grow into such special kids. You all are very close to my heart today! Merry Christmas to you - even though it isn't really what you had planned for your 2008 holiday season, you are watching miracles happen within those walls every minute you are there....hang in there.
This is just a shout out to those people to let you know that you hold a special place for me today while you are spending your time within closed walls of AAMC (or elsewhere). It's not easy - and you'll have a different appreciation for holidays from here on out, I assure you.
Our NICU parent support group has set up a breakfast for the NICU parents this morning. We are hopeful that we have a good turn out - as many of our volunteers have had to spend holidays on bedrest and/or in NICU at some point. It's certainly not the same as enjoying your family and friends, wonderful food, festive music, christmas smells of candles and pine, and all of the other good parts about the holidays. At the very least, we hope to allow the current NICU families to feel a little bit of Christmas and some parental support from those who have 'been there and done that'.
Although I won't be attending due to this cold and cough I acquired this week, I know that my fellow volunteer families will offer a wonderful support day for these parents, with lots of hope for a bright future for their children and families. Next years Christmas will be much different for them once their miracle babies have been released from the hospital and grow into such special kids. You all are very close to my heart today! Merry Christmas to you - even though it isn't really what you had planned for your 2008 holiday season, you are watching miracles happen within those walls every minute you are there....hang in there.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Eve before Christmas Eve
As I sit here so psyched that I'm done shopping, wrapping, cooking, cleaning and ready to enjoy the next 48 hours, I am also filled with so much emotion. I'm not sure why - other than Christmas just tends to do that to me...I remember going to church on Christmas for years and sitting with a lump in my throat the whole time. I sort of feel like that today. The anticipation is awesome - just thinking about seeing the kids so excited makes me feel so happy. There truly is a magic to Christmas - if you let there be.
There were a few Christmas's in the not too distant past where I was not at all happy about the holidays. I could have just skipped them all together and been fine with that. I remember dreading the holiday season - simply because for me, it was a reminder of what I didn't have. My life without children was not what I had pictured and until I had the blessing of a child in my life, one way or another, I was going to stay in that rut. We lost our first baby 4 years + 1 week ago. That day last week I wanted so badly to blog but the words wouldn't come...as it has done for the last 3 years, I woke up sad, not remembering why until later in the day. My, how far we've come. For any of you who are still living childless, and not as your choice, don't give up. Holiday time is tough for you - it often centers around children and the wonder of Christmas. I remember wishing so much I could get beyond myself and enjoy it for what it was but when you're in THAT place, it's nearly impossible to do. Since I was like that for a period of time, I think I appreciate 'the season' that much more...
Every day for the last 3 weeks, we have been riding in the car listening to Christmas music. The kids recognize the songs, and even know some of the words. They hate when I just sing them (yes Mom, you were always right about my singing ability) and scream to have the real versions put on. I know about 4 cd's by heart now and which numbers certain songs are. They are SO into it!
Last week, I attended the kids Christmas party at school. It was great to spend some time in the classroom with them - it wasn't anything fancy, just a special lunch and gift exchange. It gave me a chance to see how their classroom is run and how my boys interact with the teachers and other kids. I left there with tears in my eyes - happiness because they were so happy and a mild sadness because the years are ticking by so quickly. They did a beautiful gift for the parents which is a treasure to me forever. It's their handprints, along with a photo of themselves and a poem reminding me that they are only small for a short while and don't forget to keep remembering that...it's a priceless gift that I'll treasure for many years to come. Even more special is the fact that Cole is crying in his photo - which I love. I love it only because that is where he was emotionally on that day when it was still really hard for him to be at school and not at home...they captured this perfectly and whenever I look at it, I will remember how far he's come.
School seems to be going well now - Cole still gives me his big sad lip when I walk in to the classroom for drop off - but he's doing much better. A few quick tears is all they get and then he's sidetracked for most of the day. He's my non-sleeper though so apparently at nap time he's up first every day and they have to pull out all of the stops to keep him from waking up the rest of the kids. Not a surprise - he obviously got that from my side of the family as none of us need much sleep to function. JD is doing really well adjusting and seems to have never skipped a beat. Both kids talk about school and their teachers non-stop when they are at home; and have really blossomed just over the last 3 weeks that they have been there.
A friend of mine warned me that sometimes when kids are in a school/daycare environment for any part of the day, they come home as little hellions because they have had to behave all day. I forgot when she called it but something like "the pre-school phenomenon"? I was happy for the warning because wow, was she right on! Before we even get into the carseats in the car on the way home, they are pulling new tricks making it nearly impossible to get loaded up and out of there. It's probably a cross between the age and this 'phenomenon'. Either way, it's a challenge.
Both kids are talking up a storm now - and saying things that make us laugh daily. It's amazing what they retain - and even more amazing how we are realizing many of the things we say and do since they are imitating us. Not always a good thing. Today we were out and I had a caffeine-free diet coke in my hand (you know, the cans are brownish in color) and JD blurts out, "MOMMY'S BEER"...
Both boys have a short list for Santa this year - they both want GUITARS. And nothing else. I have no idea how this is, as there isn't an inkling of musical talent on either side of our families. Nonetheless, they will be anxiously awaiting Santa's delivery so that they can be rock stars. Cole is still not interested in many toys other than books and balls - he is always trying to perfect his throwing and catching - including how his father instructed him to throw the beach ball at the tv so that it would come back to him and he can practice both at the same time without a partner. It's a large smooth surface that bounces the ball back really well....What happens when he's doing this with a baseball or golf ball and it goes right through the tv?
We are hosting Christmas Eve this year, which I can't wait for. It will be fun for us to have all of our family together for a fun night - as kids we spent our Christmas Eve's with our cousins and extended family and I have such fond memories of that. The cousins love to be together so I'm sure we're in for some fun (as long as JD does not continue to torment his cousin Em by stealing her toys she is so diligently lining up along the floor).
I would like to wish all of our friends, family and anyone else reading, a wonderful Christmas. Take this time to reflect on the last year and remember the good parts, and smile. I hope Santa is good to all of you - and you get all that you wish for this season and in 2009. Cheers!
There were a few Christmas's in the not too distant past where I was not at all happy about the holidays. I could have just skipped them all together and been fine with that. I remember dreading the holiday season - simply because for me, it was a reminder of what I didn't have. My life without children was not what I had pictured and until I had the blessing of a child in my life, one way or another, I was going to stay in that rut. We lost our first baby 4 years + 1 week ago. That day last week I wanted so badly to blog but the words wouldn't come...as it has done for the last 3 years, I woke up sad, not remembering why until later in the day. My, how far we've come. For any of you who are still living childless, and not as your choice, don't give up. Holiday time is tough for you - it often centers around children and the wonder of Christmas. I remember wishing so much I could get beyond myself and enjoy it for what it was but when you're in THAT place, it's nearly impossible to do. Since I was like that for a period of time, I think I appreciate 'the season' that much more...
Every day for the last 3 weeks, we have been riding in the car listening to Christmas music. The kids recognize the songs, and even know some of the words. They hate when I just sing them (yes Mom, you were always right about my singing ability) and scream to have the real versions put on. I know about 4 cd's by heart now and which numbers certain songs are. They are SO into it!
Last week, I attended the kids Christmas party at school. It was great to spend some time in the classroom with them - it wasn't anything fancy, just a special lunch and gift exchange. It gave me a chance to see how their classroom is run and how my boys interact with the teachers and other kids. I left there with tears in my eyes - happiness because they were so happy and a mild sadness because the years are ticking by so quickly. They did a beautiful gift for the parents which is a treasure to me forever. It's their handprints, along with a photo of themselves and a poem reminding me that they are only small for a short while and don't forget to keep remembering that...it's a priceless gift that I'll treasure for many years to come. Even more special is the fact that Cole is crying in his photo - which I love. I love it only because that is where he was emotionally on that day when it was still really hard for him to be at school and not at home...they captured this perfectly and whenever I look at it, I will remember how far he's come.
School seems to be going well now - Cole still gives me his big sad lip when I walk in to the classroom for drop off - but he's doing much better. A few quick tears is all they get and then he's sidetracked for most of the day. He's my non-sleeper though so apparently at nap time he's up first every day and they have to pull out all of the stops to keep him from waking up the rest of the kids. Not a surprise - he obviously got that from my side of the family as none of us need much sleep to function. JD is doing really well adjusting and seems to have never skipped a beat. Both kids talk about school and their teachers non-stop when they are at home; and have really blossomed just over the last 3 weeks that they have been there.
A friend of mine warned me that sometimes when kids are in a school/daycare environment for any part of the day, they come home as little hellions because they have had to behave all day. I forgot when she called it but something like "the pre-school phenomenon"? I was happy for the warning because wow, was she right on! Before we even get into the carseats in the car on the way home, they are pulling new tricks making it nearly impossible to get loaded up and out of there. It's probably a cross between the age and this 'phenomenon'. Either way, it's a challenge.
Both kids are talking up a storm now - and saying things that make us laugh daily. It's amazing what they retain - and even more amazing how we are realizing many of the things we say and do since they are imitating us. Not always a good thing. Today we were out and I had a caffeine-free diet coke in my hand (you know, the cans are brownish in color) and JD blurts out, "MOMMY'S BEER"...
Both boys have a short list for Santa this year - they both want GUITARS. And nothing else. I have no idea how this is, as there isn't an inkling of musical talent on either side of our families. Nonetheless, they will be anxiously awaiting Santa's delivery so that they can be rock stars. Cole is still not interested in many toys other than books and balls - he is always trying to perfect his throwing and catching - including how his father instructed him to throw the beach ball at the tv so that it would come back to him and he can practice both at the same time without a partner. It's a large smooth surface that bounces the ball back really well....What happens when he's doing this with a baseball or golf ball and it goes right through the tv?
We are hosting Christmas Eve this year, which I can't wait for. It will be fun for us to have all of our family together for a fun night - as kids we spent our Christmas Eve's with our cousins and extended family and I have such fond memories of that. The cousins love to be together so I'm sure we're in for some fun (as long as JD does not continue to torment his cousin Em by stealing her toys she is so diligently lining up along the floor).
I would like to wish all of our friends, family and anyone else reading, a wonderful Christmas. Take this time to reflect on the last year and remember the good parts, and smile. I hope Santa is good to all of you - and you get all that you wish for this season and in 2009. Cheers!
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Lucky Me
About 10 or so weeks ago, I was contacted and asked to visit a new MOM on bedrest at AAMC (our local hospital). This was an interesting one - she was pregnant with Quintuplets. At that time, she was about 22 weeks pregnant I think. I visited her a few times over the next several weeks - and 2 weeks ago, she delivered her FIVE babies at 30 weeks gestation.
I was lucky enough to get to meet the babies today for the first time and see the proud Momma too. The 4 girls and 1 boy quints were all born between 2 and 3 pounds, and they all are doing incredibly well. None of them are on any breathing support, which is amazing. The smallest baby that I saw today was still only about 2 pounds, 1 ounce - and she was breathing on her own and looked beautiful. What a sight it was to see them all doing so well and just having to stay in NICU to feed and grow. It was just another reminder of the miracle of life.
Click HERE to read one of the articles in the local news.
What a Christmas gift for this Momma of five. The Grandmother and I were talking today and she's on the hunt for some Christmas preemie outfits for all of the kids - after some thought, I remembered that 2 pounders are still so tiny that even preemie clothes don't fit well. Anyone who has followed my blog since the early days remembers that I had my boys in halloween costumes purchased at the PET STORE. Think she will be offended if I point her in that direction to find some little outfits for these five little miracles? Perhaps I should just go buy them and deliver them and she'll never know the difference...
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Fun winter weekend
It's hard to believe that Christmas is only 10 days away...we had a fun winter weekend filled with christmas activities. We're definitely in the spirit (aside from sitting on Santa's lap) and we were able to enjoy some time outdoors this weekend. Hope you all are getting your shopping wrapped up - it's coming fast!
Friday, December 05, 2008
Progress
We're making progress - myself included. Today's drop off was far less traumatic on all of us. When I arrived yesterday to pick them up they were in great spirits and continued to talk about things at school for a few hours in the evening. That's a good sign. Small steps, right?
Until Monday when we do it again after a 2 day weekend. I'm thinking positive though! TGIF.
Until Monday when we do it again after a 2 day weekend. I'm thinking positive though! TGIF.
Thursday, December 04, 2008
Mommy Guilt
....is killer! I hate it. Today was day #2 at school, after a two day break between their first day and their second day. JD started crying when we pulled into the parking lot. He calmed before we got out of the car but the minute we walked into the classroom, he lost it. Cole held strong for a few minutes and then broke down when he realized I was not staying.
I made a quick exit and cried myself to work. The guilt for leaving them so upset has the best of me.
I know it's good for them, and I know that they will get used to it, and I know that they will be fine...I do. But it sure doesn't make it any easier to leave them both wailing screaming for Mommy...
I made a quick exit and cried myself to work. The guilt for leaving them so upset has the best of me.
I know it's good for them, and I know that they will get used to it, and I know that they will be fine...I do. But it sure doesn't make it any easier to leave them both wailing screaming for Mommy...
Determination
While at the playground yesterday, JD found a razor scooter that was left there by another kid. I saw it at the same time he did and couldn't get there fast enough before he picked it up. His eyes lit up like saucers when he found it. He knew exactly what it was since he watched in awe last weekend as he saw his big cousins race around on theirs. I let him play with it for a bit and he actually was able to get on it and try to make it go. As you can imagine with any 2 year old, it was way too big for him and the coordination it takes to ride one is not even close to being there for him. Sadly, he got extremely frustrated immediately as he continued to fall off of it.
I felt so badly watching his frustration - he reduced to screaming tears every time. He would get mad at the scooter and throw it on the ground when it wouldn't work for him. As you can imagine, he was bound and determined to make it work and wouldn't even allow me to try to help. He ended up settling for holding it up and walking next to it eventually; but boy, he was so frustrated by the time we left. You can see his tears and frustration in the pictures, poor little guy.
It's apparent that he's inherited MY lack of patience...funny how you see your own traits shine through at such an early age! Looks like helmets are going to be on the christmas list this year - the scooter is in our not too distant future. Next time I'll have to scope out the leftover toys at the playground before we jump out of the car!
Monday, December 01, 2008
It's official...
We're in to the swing of our new schedule this week. The boys had their first FULL day at school today. All went well - aside from poor little Cole crying for most of the morning after I left. He had a hard time early in the day but once he ate a snack and played outside, he seemed to push through his sadness.
JD did great - he didn't miss a beat. Although he started to lose it first when I was taking off their coats. I turned to leave quickly once I realized that they both were falling apart - probably the best thing I could have done (thanks to the veteran moms out there that told me this in advance). But walking down the hall, away from your screaming kids is no fun. I surprised myself as I left the building - no tears! It was also my first day back to working a full day, as opposed to a partial day and it was great.
Hopefully this new schedule will prove to be great for all of us - it's just going to take some time to get used to I guess. Now I have 2 full days off again - and then back to the work/school routine on Thurs & Friday. Hoping that the 2 day hiatus won't prove to be a set back - am a bit worried that Thursday might be like today since they aren't going 2 days in a row until the end of the week. Time will tell.
For now, I'm mentally exhausted and ready to hang it up for the night!
JD did great - he didn't miss a beat. Although he started to lose it first when I was taking off their coats. I turned to leave quickly once I realized that they both were falling apart - probably the best thing I could have done (thanks to the veteran moms out there that told me this in advance). But walking down the hall, away from your screaming kids is no fun. I surprised myself as I left the building - no tears! It was also my first day back to working a full day, as opposed to a partial day and it was great.
Hopefully this new schedule will prove to be great for all of us - it's just going to take some time to get used to I guess. Now I have 2 full days off again - and then back to the work/school routine on Thurs & Friday. Hoping that the 2 day hiatus won't prove to be a set back - am a bit worried that Thursday might be like today since they aren't going 2 days in a row until the end of the week. Time will tell.
For now, I'm mentally exhausted and ready to hang it up for the night!
Weekend withdraw
I'm in post weekend withdraw! What a fun weekend ~ those long weekends always go way too fast.
We had a wonderful Thanksgiving with our families - we saw all of the local Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, Grandparents and friends. Who could ask for anything more. Turkey Day was a busy day, fun filled for the kids for sure. Needless to say, they hit the bed without a peep when all was said and done. I so remember fun holidays with our cousins and just running and playing for hours - they all did just that and crashed hard at the end. Good times.
On Friday we ventured to Homestead Gardens to see the awesome trains set up for Christmas. The kids were not nearly as enthused as we hoped - but for a good 5 minutes or so, they were entertained. Then it was on to the next thing. The llama's are always a big hit there too. I got a good bit of the Christmas decorations out Friday afternoon - the tree is up with lights but not yet decorated. I'm letting the "novelty" wear off before I put all of the decorations on it - hoping for a little less interest this year than last.
Our little elf friends arrived on Thursday evening...Pucki and Gucki are standing tall on the mantle and keeping watch over our little monkeys. I don't we have the full effect this year yet - the concept is a bit old for JD & Cole now - but next year, it's going to work GREAT to keep them in check.
Saturday morning we left early to go to the nursing home for Pops's 93rd birthday party. Sadly, I'm not sure how much of it he understood but he had 3 of his 4 grandchildren there and 5 of his 7 great grandchildren - not bad for an impromptu party! He continues to amaze us with his strength after being so sick. We all should be so lucky to inherit his longevity genes. He enjoyed some cake and ice cream with everyone and tired easily.
Saturday evening was really fun when we took the kids to a North Pole lights walk at Willow Oak Herb Farm. We did this fun Christmas event last year but obviously the kids were a bit too young to understand. They totally got it this year! They loved it! They both enjoyed running after the big kids and trying to keep up. And they loved all of the lights, music and animation.
It started with a little tale from the farm owner, complete with magic fairy dust to make the 3,000 mile walk a bit easier to the North Pole. She reminded us of the rules and sent us on our way to follow the lights. The story was sort of like a polar express story, and after about 6-8 stops along the way, we made it to the North Pole. For anyone local to the MD area, I highly recommend this fun family adventure!
We had a wonderful Thanksgiving with our families - we saw all of the local Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, Grandparents and friends. Who could ask for anything more. Turkey Day was a busy day, fun filled for the kids for sure. Needless to say, they hit the bed without a peep when all was said and done. I so remember fun holidays with our cousins and just running and playing for hours - they all did just that and crashed hard at the end. Good times.
On Friday we ventured to Homestead Gardens to see the awesome trains set up for Christmas. The kids were not nearly as enthused as we hoped - but for a good 5 minutes or so, they were entertained. Then it was on to the next thing. The llama's are always a big hit there too. I got a good bit of the Christmas decorations out Friday afternoon - the tree is up with lights but not yet decorated. I'm letting the "novelty" wear off before I put all of the decorations on it - hoping for a little less interest this year than last.
Our little elf friends arrived on Thursday evening...Pucki and Gucki are standing tall on the mantle and keeping watch over our little monkeys. I don't we have the full effect this year yet - the concept is a bit old for JD & Cole now - but next year, it's going to work GREAT to keep them in check.
Saturday morning we left early to go to the nursing home for Pops's 93rd birthday party. Sadly, I'm not sure how much of it he understood but he had 3 of his 4 grandchildren there and 5 of his 7 great grandchildren - not bad for an impromptu party! He continues to amaze us with his strength after being so sick. We all should be so lucky to inherit his longevity genes. He enjoyed some cake and ice cream with everyone and tired easily.
Saturday evening was really fun when we took the kids to a North Pole lights walk at Willow Oak Herb Farm. We did this fun Christmas event last year but obviously the kids were a bit too young to understand. They totally got it this year! They loved it! They both enjoyed running after the big kids and trying to keep up. And they loved all of the lights, music and animation.
It started with a little tale from the farm owner, complete with magic fairy dust to make the 3,000 mile walk a bit easier to the North Pole. She reminded us of the rules and sent us on our way to follow the lights. The story was sort of like a polar express story, and after about 6-8 stops along the way, we made it to the North Pole. For anyone local to the MD area, I highly recommend this fun family adventure!
The North Pole walk gang!
Sunday was a great football day - complete with freezing cold weather and lots of rain. After morning donuts with Grampy & cousin Emily, we hunkered down for the day and spent some good quality family time together. Mommy packed up the goodies for the BIG DAY on Monday...
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Sweet Pea
As all mothers do, I often call the kids short nick names throughout the day. Most times, I'm not even thinking about it and the names just come out. My usual for Cole happens to be "sweet pea". Yes, I know, not the most masculine name for a little boy but I'm his Mom so I can call him whatever I want...
In any case, the last few weeks have been quite funny with this. If the boys get into trouble over something, Cole will look at me eye to eye and say (as I'm scolding him), "Hi Sweet Pea". It's the cutest, most innocent voice - and of course, it makes me laugh and crumble into a million pieces. Think I'm in trouble in the years to come? He's got my number...
In any case, the last few weeks have been quite funny with this. If the boys get into trouble over something, Cole will look at me eye to eye and say (as I'm scolding him), "Hi Sweet Pea". It's the cutest, most innocent voice - and of course, it makes me laugh and crumble into a million pieces. Think I'm in trouble in the years to come? He's got my number...
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Dry Run
...all of that worrying for nothing! I took the kids to their school today for about 30 minutes and dropped them off just to let them get familiar with things before they spend their first day there on Monday. I wasn’t really sure what to expect and frankly was a bit worried that it might not go well at all. As it turns out, they could have cared less whether I stayed or not and they had a ball! The minute I took off their coats and put them in their cubby, they were off and running, going opposite directions to check out the new place. They smiled and talked a lot – which is always a good sign. Tomorrow we go back again for the same routine - hoping that today was not a fluke and tomorrow will be more of the same.
Needless to say, I feel like we’ve made a great decision for them and I’m feeling so good about letting them go next week. Now the tough part – saying goodbye to Jessica tomorrow...
Needless to say, I feel like we’ve made a great decision for them and I’m feeling so good about letting them go next week. Now the tough part – saying goodbye to Jessica tomorrow...
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Thursday, November 13, 2008
School Days
We've finally made our decision on what we're doing Dec 1 when Jessica leaves us. Nevermind the sadness I feel about the part that she's leaving, we're happy with our decision and looking forward (sort of) to our new routine. The thought of finding another nanny was absolutely daunting to me - and something that I just couldn't do. I tried, for a week. Personally, I know that I've been spoiled and I couldn't imagine finding someone as perfect. I know that there are so many wonderful nanny types out there - but the thought of entrusting my kids with another stranger (of sorts) who would drive them places just didn't work for me. That said, our decision was made.
The boys are going to be starting a school program, with afternoon day care. We looked at a couple of schools and narrowed in on one which we are really excited about. I'm thankful that C. took an active part in our choices and his visits to the school helped to confirm that we've found a good spot.
My work schedule will change and I'll be working three full days a week, instead of 5 partial days. At first I had mixed feelings about this but since it's our only option at this time due to availability at the school, I've gotten used to the idea and actually like it. It will give me 2 days per week to spend with the kids and do some fun things with them. It's going to be a huge adjustment for all of us - in many ways. But change is good and I think the kids will flourish once they are around all of the other kids and in a new setting.
Looking back, I can't imagine a better beginning for them, having had Jessica with them since they came home from the hospital. We were fortunate enough to not only have in home care, but the most wonderful, nurturing, loving woman caring for them. She's going to be such an amazing Mom herself someday - and although we will miss her terribly, I feel so fortunate for the time we did have with her. She is responsible for so much of their emotional development into such loving kids. Her kind, gentle demeanor and child rearing philosophy parallel mine. That is key for the consistency we've been able to have.
I am not quite sure how to prepare the boys for her departure. At their age now, I know that subconsciously they will miss her and feel the void when she's gone. But I don't think that they will know enough to ask why she's no longer with us each day. They still are in the 'out of sight, out of mind' mode, which I think I'm thankful for at this point. They light up when they see her and she comes in the door each day ~ but I'm hopeful that with the new routine, they won't miss her too much to the point that it makes them sad. That in itself would break my heart, seeing them sad each day. In another few months I think we're going to be to that place emotionally with them so I'm glad it's happening now before they are mature enough to realize it. I dread the day that she's really gone - I don't know how I will tell the boys to say good bye to her THAT day. I myself will be a basket case, and if I had to guess, she will be too. It makes me cry just writing about it. Ugh, tough days ahead I suppose...
Nonetheless, we're excited and hopeful that we've made the right choice. In prep for this big day, we have procured their first little backpacks (or "rescue packs" as they call them, for you Diego fans who understand that lingo!). They love to wear their little packs around the house and put their things in them. It's a total hoot. I look at them running around the house with backpacks and can't for the life of me, understand how they got so big already.
As time passes, I am reminded, yet again, of how lucky we are. And I can't wait to be able to spend more quality time with them in the coming months with our new schedule. These days will be gone before we know it and they will be in school full time. I'm just lucky I have the chance to do so!
Monday, November 10, 2008
Life's Best Recipe
*Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile. It is the ultimate anti-depressant.
*Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day. Talk to God about what is going on in your life. Buy a lock if you have to.
*When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement, 'My purpose is to__________ today. I am thankful for______________'
*Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
*Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, wild Alaskan salmon, broccoli, almonds & walnuts.
*Try to make at least three people smile each day.
*Don't waste your precious energy on gossip, energy vampires, issues of the past, negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead, invest your energy in the positive present moment.
*Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a college kid with a maxed out charge card.
*Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
*Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
*Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
*You are not so important that you have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
*Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
*Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their Journey is all about.
*No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
*Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years, will this matter?'
*Forgive everyone for everything.
*What other people think of you is none of your business.
*GOD heals everything - but you have to ask Him.
*However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
*Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch!!!
*Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
*Each night before you go to bed complete the following statements: I am thankful for__________. Today I accomplished_________.
*Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.
*When you are feeling down, start listing your many blessings. You'll be smiling before you know it.
*Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day. Talk to God about what is going on in your life. Buy a lock if you have to.
*When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement, 'My purpose is to__________ today. I am thankful for______________'
*Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
*Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, wild Alaskan salmon, broccoli, almonds & walnuts.
*Try to make at least three people smile each day.
*Don't waste your precious energy on gossip, energy vampires, issues of the past, negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead, invest your energy in the positive present moment.
*Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a college kid with a maxed out charge card.
*Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
*Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
*Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
*You are not so important that you have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
*Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
*Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their Journey is all about.
*No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
*Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years, will this matter?'
*Forgive everyone for everything.
*What other people think of you is none of your business.
*GOD heals everything - but you have to ask Him.
*However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
*Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch!!!
*Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
*Each night before you go to bed complete the following statements: I am thankful for__________. Today I accomplished_________.
*Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.
*When you are feeling down, start listing your many blessings. You'll be smiling before you know it.
Friday, November 07, 2008
Someday....
...his wife or girlfriend will REALLY appreciate this photo (obviously, he WILL NOT find it quite as amusing as we do).
Sunday, November 02, 2008
Sunday Special
Every Sunday for the last many months, Grampy (My Dad) goes over to my niece's to get her for Sunday donuts. Sometimes he brings the donuts to her house, and other times he picks her up and they go get them together. It's such a fun tradition for them.
Well, they brought donuts to OUR house this morning! The cousins were lucky enough to have breakfast with Grampy this am - what fun.
WE LOVE GRAMPY (AND DONUTS)!
Friday, October 31, 2008
VOTE VOTE VOTE
I hope that everyone is planning on voting next week. Please, make an EDUCATED vote on November 4th!
Halloween was a hit!
The kids did great on Halloween night. They loved trick or treating and especially loved seeing all of the lights and running kids while being pulled in the wagon. We're in for a real treat next year. Until tonight, they didn't really know what candy was - the cats out of the bag now!
Hope everyone had a fun, safe night - it was a great night for trick or treating!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
We went to a halloween party yesterday with about 15 other 'multiples' families (do the math). It was organized chaos - and we did it without wine! Hats off to the brave MOM who volunteered her house for over 30 toddlers. She's a better woman than I!
Here's a sneak peek at the boys costumes - these photos aren't great. We'll get better ones tonight! More to come...
Cole is not a fan of his dog suit....
Have a safe and fun Halloween!
We went to a halloween party yesterday with about 15 other 'multiples' families (do the math). It was organized chaos - and we did it without wine! Hats off to the brave MOM who volunteered her house for over 30 toddlers. She's a better woman than I!
Here's a sneak peek at the boys costumes - these photos aren't great. We'll get better ones tonight! More to come...
Cole is not a fan of his dog suit....Have a safe and fun Halloween!
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Deja Vu
It comes back so clearly, so easily. I have a new friend on bedrest. I visited her a few weeks ago, a week after she lost one of her twins in utero. They had twin to twin transfusion syndrome.
Mid afternoon, I got a call about a woman I needed to visit. At that time, she was only 19 weeks. When we met, we had THAT connection. The connection that comes only once in a while and is immediate when I meet someone who has lost a baby. And the connection that only a former bedrester feels when you see a pregnant Mom laying in bed, feet higher than head, hanging on for dear life to that little life that is still growing inside.
We talked for a while; her loss was still really fresh. She was sorta stoic, strong and scared. Things had calmed a bit and seemed stable with the living baby. Her emotions were conflicted – moving between such sadness & devastation for the loss, but staying strong and optimistic for the living baby. What a tough place to be. We laughed a little, cried a little and talked about things a little. The real grief comes later – but there are much more important things at hand now, like the living baby.
I got a call last night from my new friend. When I called her back, I learned that things had taken a turn the wrong direction and she was in a very precarious place. Her cervix had changed and there was only a very thin membrane separating her baby from the world. She was scared. And sad. And having a hard time staying positive. She’s 23 weeks now and almost to the viability mark. One more week and she can get the steroid shots for the baby, which increases the odds of survival if born soon. They tilted her bed even further back, so she’s standing on her head (almost). Gravity is working in the opposite direction to take the pressure off. Imagine eating, drinking and existing with your head 45 degrees below your feet. She has a headache. It’s no fun.
Just typing this gives me butterflies in my belly and makes my heart hurt. Sadly, there are no words for her except “one day at a time & stay positive”. But I’ve been there. I’ve been THAT scared. There’s nothing worse than being completely out of control of your situation and just having to sit and wait. Alone. Every minute that goes by, you wonder what will happen next. You pray for nothing to happen. It changes so quickly, and without warning. The nurses come and go. The visitors come and go. The husband and family come and go. And you and the baby(ies) stay there, hoping.
As I walked to the car after our short visit this morning, I cried. I cried for her because I know how scary it is. I know how lonely it is. I know how that helpless out of control feeling feels. I cried because I couldn’t find any words at all to say to help her. I get it, L. I get it. And I'm sorry you have to endure this. In the meantime, we pray for a happy ending...
Mid afternoon, I got a call about a woman I needed to visit. At that time, she was only 19 weeks. When we met, we had THAT connection. The connection that comes only once in a while and is immediate when I meet someone who has lost a baby. And the connection that only a former bedrester feels when you see a pregnant Mom laying in bed, feet higher than head, hanging on for dear life to that little life that is still growing inside.
We talked for a while; her loss was still really fresh. She was sorta stoic, strong and scared. Things had calmed a bit and seemed stable with the living baby. Her emotions were conflicted – moving between such sadness & devastation for the loss, but staying strong and optimistic for the living baby. What a tough place to be. We laughed a little, cried a little and talked about things a little. The real grief comes later – but there are much more important things at hand now, like the living baby.
I got a call last night from my new friend. When I called her back, I learned that things had taken a turn the wrong direction and she was in a very precarious place. Her cervix had changed and there was only a very thin membrane separating her baby from the world. She was scared. And sad. And having a hard time staying positive. She’s 23 weeks now and almost to the viability mark. One more week and she can get the steroid shots for the baby, which increases the odds of survival if born soon. They tilted her bed even further back, so she’s standing on her head (almost). Gravity is working in the opposite direction to take the pressure off. Imagine eating, drinking and existing with your head 45 degrees below your feet. She has a headache. It’s no fun.
Just typing this gives me butterflies in my belly and makes my heart hurt. Sadly, there are no words for her except “one day at a time & stay positive”. But I’ve been there. I’ve been THAT scared. There’s nothing worse than being completely out of control of your situation and just having to sit and wait. Alone. Every minute that goes by, you wonder what will happen next. You pray for nothing to happen. It changes so quickly, and without warning. The nurses come and go. The visitors come and go. The husband and family come and go. And you and the baby(ies) stay there, hoping.
As I walked to the car after our short visit this morning, I cried. I cried for her because I know how scary it is. I know how lonely it is. I know how that helpless out of control feeling feels. I cried because I couldn’t find any words at all to say to help her. I get it, L. I get it. And I'm sorry you have to endure this. In the meantime, we pray for a happy ending...
Monday, October 27, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
13 years...
...and still goin' strong. I am the jerk that almost forgot our anniversary today, amidst the chaos. And wouldn't you know, I was surprised by a dozen beautiful roses. We're postponing our anniversary today and celebrating later this week. Nonetheless, Happy Anniversary to the man I married 13 years ago today - you're my best friend, rock and confidant; we still have so much fun together and we're so blessed with our family.I love you more every day - you're a wonderful husband & father and I'm so lucky to have you. Here's to many more together my love!
-Me
It aint over til the fat lady sings...
I just went upstairs to check on the kids and JD had puked all over his bed - again. Seriously, it's a cruel joke someone is playing on us. No?
A new kid, just add water
...that's what the on-call pediatrician said to me last night about 2 hours after Cole was admitted to the hospital. The one thing that actually made me chuckle.
Cole's screaming low blood sugar & dehydrated little body earned us a sleepless night in the pediatric suites at AAMC. He hardly passed through the ER before they were walking us directly down to ped's for an immediate admission. I guess we can say we made the right decision about taking him to the doctor yesterday afternoon.
Within a few short minutes of a bolus of sugar water, Cole turned back into his feisty little self. He had not eaten in almost 48 hours and had started refusing fluids because he couldn't hold them down. Once that appetite returned, he ate 6 packs of crackers in about 10 minutes. It reminded me of one of those cracker eating contests you see in college - only we weren't asking him to whistle at the end with a dry mouth full of crumbs.
We settled in around 10:30 with lights out and may have slept a solid 2 hours in a row; that's about it. It's pretty hard to keep an IV in a 2 year olds arm without a constant fuss. Let me add that it's even more interesting trying to get an IV into a 2 year old arm to begin with...luckily, the anti-nausea meds had a sedative so that helped with the sleeping. Any time the nurses came in, he said "please, take it off" about 10 times in a row. At first it started out being a bit hard to understand but by the end of the night, he perfected those words and they were clear as day.
By 8:30 this morning, he was back to his old self; eating crackers again, trying to get out of bed and throwing the football with me. He's one resilient little dude.
We were chomping at the bit to get back home. He must have asked for JD & Daddy at least every 15 minutes for endless hours - and would you know, we walked in the front door, greeted by JD and he walked right by him like he never left.
I feel like I've been beaten to a pulp over the last week with all of the boys in the house being so sick. Hopefully we've turned the corner now and the end of the tunnel is near. If it's not, I'm blowing town in the middle of the night and taking a short hiatus!
Cole's screaming low blood sugar & dehydrated little body earned us a sleepless night in the pediatric suites at AAMC. He hardly passed through the ER before they were walking us directly down to ped's for an immediate admission. I guess we can say we made the right decision about taking him to the doctor yesterday afternoon.
Within a few short minutes of a bolus of sugar water, Cole turned back into his feisty little self. He had not eaten in almost 48 hours and had started refusing fluids because he couldn't hold them down. Once that appetite returned, he ate 6 packs of crackers in about 10 minutes. It reminded me of one of those cracker eating contests you see in college - only we weren't asking him to whistle at the end with a dry mouth full of crumbs.
We settled in around 10:30 with lights out and may have slept a solid 2 hours in a row; that's about it. It's pretty hard to keep an IV in a 2 year olds arm without a constant fuss. Let me add that it's even more interesting trying to get an IV into a 2 year old arm to begin with...luckily, the anti-nausea meds had a sedative so that helped with the sleeping. Any time the nurses came in, he said "please, take it off" about 10 times in a row. At first it started out being a bit hard to understand but by the end of the night, he perfected those words and they were clear as day.
By 8:30 this morning, he was back to his old self; eating crackers again, trying to get out of bed and throwing the football with me. He's one resilient little dude.
We were chomping at the bit to get back home. He must have asked for JD & Daddy at least every 15 minutes for endless hours - and would you know, we walked in the front door, greeted by JD and he walked right by him like he never left.I feel like I've been beaten to a pulp over the last week with all of the boys in the house being so sick. Hopefully we've turned the corner now and the end of the tunnel is near. If it's not, I'm blowing town in the middle of the night and taking a short hiatus!
Monday, October 20, 2008
Dear God,
While I am most thankful that you spared me of the long term version of this stomach bug and only gave it to me for 12 hours, I plea for you to assist in it's speedy exit from our premise, immediately. We have had this germy monster among us for a week now and we're beyond ready for it to go away. My kids are starving and thirsty and would really like to be able to hold some calories in their tiny bodies.
I don't know how much longer I can sit and watch Diego and Dora (thank goodness for DVR); nor do I know how many more times I can clean up explosive diapers and pukey jammies. Please, please, please do away with this virus as soon as you possibly can so we can resume some normalcy. Three baths a day and endless laundry are starting to take their toll.
Anything you can do to help would be greatly appreciated. I will continue to pray in the meantime.
Truly yours,
Mommy L
While I am most thankful that you spared me of the long term version of this stomach bug and only gave it to me for 12 hours, I plea for you to assist in it's speedy exit from our premise, immediately. We have had this germy monster among us for a week now and we're beyond ready for it to go away. My kids are starving and thirsty and would really like to be able to hold some calories in their tiny bodies.
I don't know how much longer I can sit and watch Diego and Dora (thank goodness for DVR); nor do I know how many more times I can clean up explosive diapers and pukey jammies. Please, please, please do away with this virus as soon as you possibly can so we can resume some normalcy. Three baths a day and endless laundry are starting to take their toll.
Anything you can do to help would be greatly appreciated. I will continue to pray in the meantime.
Truly yours,
Mommy L
Friday, October 17, 2008
Bummer
I hate when things you are really looking forward to don't work out - ugh. It's been one of those weeks. I took the day off from work today (pre-planned) to spend the day with my kids and some of my favorite fellow MOMs (Moms of Multiples) and sadly, we couldn't do what we had planned. Our outing was to be a fun day the Pumpkin Patch - and it's a beautiful fall day outside. I knew when I got JD out of bed this am that it wasn't happening - nothing like waking up to a sick baby; and having to change sheets/blankets/jammies etc. I'm just totally disappointed - I've been looking forward to it for weeks. A day off with my boys and my girlfriends. Oh well. Could be worse. I do feel sorry for him being sick - he's just not the happy go lucky little guy he usually is; that always makes me sad to see.
C. has been VERY sick all week (the sickest I have EVER seen him) with what we thought was a bad case of food poisoning. He just returned to work today, since Monday. We're now wondering if it wasn't in fact food poisoning and it's a flu bug due to today's events. Surely Cole is shortly behind JD. Fingers crossed that I escape it. I'm run down however so hoping my immune system kicks into high gear. Although, at least it's Friday and we have a weekend coming up to recoup.
It's been a sleepless week for a number of reasons so it will be nice to try to catch up on some much needed rest. We were supposed to have company this weekend which we had to cancel since there is an alien stomach bug who has taken up temporary residence with us.
Last Monday, our nanny gave her notice and let us know that she's leaving us, right after Thanksgiving. Now THAT is a kick in the pants. After a few days of mourning, we started to figure out our options going forward in December. Included in these options is the possibility of putting the kids into a structured school program with afternoon care. I started my search. I visited a couple of schools this week. I have lost sleep over what to do. My work schedule would have to be modified a bit (actually more in office hours). My kids will miss Jess so much, and so will we. I don't want to stop working - I have the best of both worlds right now. C. doesn't want our kids in 'daycare' all week. The cost is similar, which is good. We'll never be able to replace Jess in kind with an even calibur nanny - we've been spoiled. I would have to settle for something less. WHAT A TOUGH DECISION! We have to make a decision soon - if we don't do the school program, I need to get busy on my nanny search...to be continued....
C. has been VERY sick all week (the sickest I have EVER seen him) with what we thought was a bad case of food poisoning. He just returned to work today, since Monday. We're now wondering if it wasn't in fact food poisoning and it's a flu bug due to today's events. Surely Cole is shortly behind JD. Fingers crossed that I escape it. I'm run down however so hoping my immune system kicks into high gear. Although, at least it's Friday and we have a weekend coming up to recoup.
It's been a sleepless week for a number of reasons so it will be nice to try to catch up on some much needed rest. We were supposed to have company this weekend which we had to cancel since there is an alien stomach bug who has taken up temporary residence with us.
Last Monday, our nanny gave her notice and let us know that she's leaving us, right after Thanksgiving. Now THAT is a kick in the pants. After a few days of mourning, we started to figure out our options going forward in December. Included in these options is the possibility of putting the kids into a structured school program with afternoon care. I started my search. I visited a couple of schools this week. I have lost sleep over what to do. My work schedule would have to be modified a bit (actually more in office hours). My kids will miss Jess so much, and so will we. I don't want to stop working - I have the best of both worlds right now. C. doesn't want our kids in 'daycare' all week. The cost is similar, which is good. We'll never be able to replace Jess in kind with an even calibur nanny - we've been spoiled. I would have to settle for something less. WHAT A TOUGH DECISION! We have to make a decision soon - if we don't do the school program, I need to get busy on my nanny search...to be continued....
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
October 15
Today is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day. For any of you who are celebrating this day today, don't forget to light your candle at 7pm tonight - there will be a wave of light in honor of our angels.
In memory of our Son, Calvin, a selfless hero and our other lost babies.
An Angel Never Dies
Don't let them say I wasn't born,
That something stopped my heart,
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,
I've loved you from the start.
Although my body you can't hold,
It doesn't mean I'm gone.
This world was worthy, not, of me,
God chose that I move on.
I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face.
You have my word, I'll fill your arms,
Someday we will embrace.
You'll hear that it was "meant to be,
God doesn't make mistakes."
But that won't soften your worst blow,
Or make your heart not ache.
I'm watching over all you do,
another child you'll bear.
Believe me when I say to you,
That I am always there.
There will come a time,
I promise you,
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips,
And then you'll understand.
Although I've never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes
That doesn't mean I never "was"
~ An Angel Never Dies.....
We miss you always.
In memory of our Son, Calvin, a selfless hero and our other lost babies.
An Angel Never Dies
Don't let them say I wasn't born,
That something stopped my heart,
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,
I've loved you from the start.
Although my body you can't hold,
It doesn't mean I'm gone.
This world was worthy, not, of me,
God chose that I move on.
I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face.
You have my word, I'll fill your arms,
Someday we will embrace.
You'll hear that it was "meant to be,
God doesn't make mistakes."
But that won't soften your worst blow,
Or make your heart not ache.
I'm watching over all you do,
another child you'll bear.
Believe me when I say to you,
That I am always there.
There will come a time,
I promise you,
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips,
And then you'll understand.
Although I've never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes
That doesn't mean I never "was"
~ An Angel Never Dies.....
We miss you always.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Is your Mama a Llama?
We did our annual Fall trip out to Homestead Gardens yesterday and had a great time! Mimi & Grampy joined us there - added bonus! We took the hayride over the llama barn and the boys really enjoyed seeing all of the llamas. It was a beautiful day (more like summer than fall) and a fun day to be outdoors. Fall is officially here!
Cole is really into pumpkins this year. He wanted to touch every single one that we passed by. Halloween might just be a hit this year! This was the best photo we could get of the two of them together, both looking in the same direction...
Happy Fall!
Thursday, October 09, 2008
Do it for Calvin
Stillbirth Awareness & Research Act
I support H.R. 5979 Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act and you should too! Take a few extra minutes to read this post and then get in gear and take action.
October 15th is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day in the United States. Each year that I have had my blog, I have recognized this special day, and for years prior to the blogs inception.
More than 25,000 children are stillborn in the United States every year leaving mothers, entire families and communities devastated. Estimates of the rate of occurrence of stillbirth make it at least as common as autism. Stillbirth is not an intractable problem. Greater research would likely significantly reduce its incidence, but good research requires good data.
H.R. 5979: Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act is under consideration by Congress. This proposed bill would standardize stillbirth investigation and diagnosis, thus providing more data for the needed research. Better research means fewer children born still.
On October 15th, remember the thousands of unfinished children lost and the families who remain to grieve them. Honor them by taking action. Let's help pass H.R. 5979.
Action Steps:
Step 1. Use Your Blog to Enlist Others-Copy the contents of this entire post and publish it on your blog immediately. GOAL: Enlist 10 of your readers to spread the word
Step 2. Use Your E-mail to Enlist Others-E-mail 5 bloggers and ask them (nicely and in an unspammy way) to publish these action steps on their blog. Consider contacting celebrity bloggers, political bloggers, medical bloggers, or bloggers who are not part of your reading community. GOAL: Enlist 3 bloggers outside of your normal blog sphere to spread the word in other online communities.
Step 3. Help Pass the Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act-By October 15th, publish a post on your blog supporting H.R. 5979 Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act. For maximum impact, title your post: "Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act."
There is another cause that goes along with this that is also near and dear to my heart. My kids were born at 28 weeks (12 weeks early) due to the stillbirth of their brother, Calvin. Luckily, they had the chance at life, and survived. There are many families out there that are not so lucky. There isn't much worse in life than leaving the hospital without your child. Premature birth, especially with 'multiples' is too common. Despite bedrest and doctors best practice, there are too many babies born early who do not make it.
More infants in the US die today because of prematurity, more than any other cause. The March of Dimes is urging the federal government to support prematurity related research. You can click HERE to support this research incentive. We hope you will take an extra few minutes to take a look - and better yet, put this on your blog or website and urge everyone you know to do the same.
I thank you, and so does my family! I will remind you again on October 15th.
I support H.R. 5979 Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act and you should too! Take a few extra minutes to read this post and then get in gear and take action.
October 15th is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day in the United States. Each year that I have had my blog, I have recognized this special day, and for years prior to the blogs inception.
More than 25,000 children are stillborn in the United States every year leaving mothers, entire families and communities devastated. Estimates of the rate of occurrence of stillbirth make it at least as common as autism. Stillbirth is not an intractable problem. Greater research would likely significantly reduce its incidence, but good research requires good data.
H.R. 5979: Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act is under consideration by Congress. This proposed bill would standardize stillbirth investigation and diagnosis, thus providing more data for the needed research. Better research means fewer children born still.
On October 15th, remember the thousands of unfinished children lost and the families who remain to grieve them. Honor them by taking action. Let's help pass H.R. 5979.
Action Steps:
Step 1. Use Your Blog to Enlist Others-Copy the contents of this entire post and publish it on your blog immediately. GOAL: Enlist 10 of your readers to spread the word
Step 2. Use Your E-mail to Enlist Others-E-mail 5 bloggers and ask them (nicely and in an unspammy way) to publish these action steps on their blog. Consider contacting celebrity bloggers, political bloggers, medical bloggers, or bloggers who are not part of your reading community. GOAL: Enlist 3 bloggers outside of your normal blog sphere to spread the word in other online communities.
Step 3. Help Pass the Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act-By October 15th, publish a post on your blog supporting H.R. 5979 Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act. For maximum impact, title your post: "Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act."
There is another cause that goes along with this that is also near and dear to my heart. My kids were born at 28 weeks (12 weeks early) due to the stillbirth of their brother, Calvin. Luckily, they had the chance at life, and survived. There are many families out there that are not so lucky. There isn't much worse in life than leaving the hospital without your child. Premature birth, especially with 'multiples' is too common. Despite bedrest and doctors best practice, there are too many babies born early who do not make it.
More infants in the US die today because of prematurity, more than any other cause. The March of Dimes is urging the federal government to support prematurity related research. You can click HERE to support this research incentive. We hope you will take an extra few minutes to take a look - and better yet, put this on your blog or website and urge everyone you know to do the same.
I thank you, and so does my family! I will remind you again on October 15th.
Monday, October 06, 2008
Foreshadowing?
He may be small now, but he aspires to be BIG! Cole is absolutely mesmerized by basketball hoops. Wherever we are, if there is a hoop around, we MUST go see it. And he's perfectly fine standing and staring at it - for a LONG TIME! It's incredible. He wakes up in the morning and asks to go see a basketball hoop - we get in the car and he wants to go see a basketball hoop - we pass one on the road and he just about leaps out of his car seat and squeals with delight. When we have to leave the 'hoop', it's a full on temper tantrum with real tears...
Someday, perhaps he'll be big enough to make a basket for real. Until then, he will just stare at it and dream big! I can't wait to see him make his first REAL basket someday.
Someday, perhaps he'll be big enough to make a basket for real. Until then, he will just stare at it and dream big! I can't wait to see him make his first REAL basket someday.
Birds & Bees
I didn't realize they did this at such a young age? Are we going to have to have "that talk" sooner than we think? I'm not sure who is after who here...but I do know, they sure love Lizzie!Sunday, October 05, 2008
Jellystone was a hit!
We had a fantastic weekend with Yogi! This will be short because we're exhausted - but in a very good way. The kids had a great time and so did we. Here are a few snaps to summarize the weekend...it was quite the Halloween extravaganza - a great way to get in the spooky spirit!
Our cabin was perfect for us - two small bedrooms and a kitchen area. It started out a little rough with JD having a fever on the way out the door Friday but by Saturday am, he was good as new. The weather was fantastic and we enjoyed walking around the park looking at all of the Halloween decorations. The month of October there is filled with Halloween weekends - and the people that go there go all out on the decorations. Most campsites were decorated with lights and spooky stuff - they were trying to win the weekend award for the best decorations. There was a late night haunted trail for big kids and adults too, along with all of the kids activities that ran all day long. Yogi, Cindy Bear and Boo Boo were all over the park all day which was fun for all of the little ones. We're already booked for next year - it was THAT good!
Off to buy our little pumpkins some pumpkins!
Our cabin was perfect for us - two small bedrooms and a kitchen area. It started out a little rough with JD having a fever on the way out the door Friday but by Saturday am, he was good as new. The weather was fantastic and we enjoyed walking around the park looking at all of the Halloween decorations. The month of October there is filled with Halloween weekends - and the people that go there go all out on the decorations. Most campsites were decorated with lights and spooky stuff - they were trying to win the weekend award for the best decorations. There was a late night haunted trail for big kids and adults too, along with all of the kids activities that ran all day long. Yogi, Cindy Bear and Boo Boo were all over the park all day which was fun for all of the little ones. We're already booked for next year - it was THAT good!Off to buy our little pumpkins some pumpkins!
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
What are we up to...
I finally have my arms back around my life again - phew. Things just caught up with me and I had to slow it down and get things back on track. You know how it is. We've had a fun few weeks around here. The kids have been on fire and keeping me laughing and busy. I have completed the daunting task of switching the kids summer & fall/winter clothes, only to have it reach back into the 70's all week when I thought the cool weather was here. Figures. Into the bins I went to drag the shorts back out. I guess I was a little premature on packing things away...*mental note to self - don't try to do the clothes swap with the kids hanging around - totally counterproductive and takes 10 x's longer.
We've had a language explosion around here which is so much fun to watch. I feel like I live with 2 parrots - they repeat EVERYTHING, and at least a hundred times until I acknowledge that they are speaking. Remember when you were a kid and you used to mimic your brothers and sisters by repeating everything too many times to count until they lost it? I feel like that some days. Only those little voices hardly make me mad...here's JD's latest rendition of Happy Birthday. We were on our way to a friends birthday party and he was practicing.
At that particular birthday party there was a real live firetruck. Each of the kids got to squirt water with the fire hose - both boys gave it their best try. Sadly, I was helping them wait in line so I didn't get any photos of it (update, someone sent me photos of the kids with the fire hose). We also had cousin Emily's 3rd Birthday party last weekend. We had a great time and had another rocket cake - we've got a family full of Little Einsteins fans.
We've had a language explosion around here which is so much fun to watch. I feel like I live with 2 parrots - they repeat EVERYTHING, and at least a hundred times until I acknowledge that they are speaking. Remember when you were a kid and you used to mimic your brothers and sisters by repeating everything too many times to count until they lost it? I feel like that some days. Only those little voices hardly make me mad...here's JD's latest rendition of Happy Birthday. We were on our way to a friends birthday party and he was practicing.
At that particular birthday party there was a real live firetruck. Each of the kids got to squirt water with the fire hose - both boys gave it their best try. Sadly, I was helping them wait in line so I didn't get any photos of it (update, someone sent me photos of the kids with the fire hose). We also had cousin Emily's 3rd Birthday party last weekend. We had a great time and had another rocket cake - we've got a family full of Little Einsteins fans.
This week the kids finally are big enough to stand on stools in the bathroom to brush their teeth. We've been waiting for this day for a while now - previously when they would try to stand up, their chins were hitting the vanity and they couldn't reach the sink. Well, we're there! I snapped a few photos of them admiring themselves in the mirror. JD is a total ham! He thinks he's pretty handsome - and he reminds us of this while staring at himself in the mirror.
Each night when we do the bedtime routine, we're now into the 'stalling' techniques to stave off bedtime as long as possible. It's always entertaining to see what they will think of next. We read MANY books before bed, and always the same ones. For posterity's sake, I want to post the favorites here so I have them to refer to later. I'm sure they are all of the same ones that other 2 year olds love to read. Isn't it amazing how they can read the same book 10 times a day and still want to read it again and again and again and again? Even though they recite the words to me when I turn to the next page, they still find it entertaining - not at all boring. Here I am ready to poke my eyes out and they read it like it's the first time they've ever read it. Ah, to be 2 again. Here are the fav's - in no particular order (but we have to read every single one before lights out):
And there are MANY things required in the crib in order to go night night. Cole has 2 hand knitted blankets (by Mimi), Diego, baby Jag, water, 2 books and bear. JD has his 3 small blankets, 1 large blanket, Diego, baby Jag and his water. Now he screams about 5 minutes after I close the door and wants me to hold him in the rocking chair. The sap that I am, I actually love this and savor every last second of it - it won't be long before he will have no part of me snuggling and holding him in the rocking chair.
We have a fun weekend coming up. We're taking the kids to Jellystone Park - yes, the home of Yogi Bear! It's about an hour and a half from here and we'll be pseudo-camping (luxury cabin). No doubt it will be an interesting adventure. Stay tuned for updates after the weekend. We'll make sure it's well documented!
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