Well, I guess this marks the middle of the week; anticipating seeing the Perinatologist this evening so I'll post an update later tonight. Not much to report - just have a new found addiction to Sudoku - thanks for the tip girls! More later.
Update:
Another good peri report today on the boys; Baby B is about 1 lb, 11 oz now and Baby C is about 1 lb, 13 oz; Baby A still has a good heart rate but we noticed some thickening around his heart muscle which indicates that his heart is working overtime to keep himself alive. He’s doing a great job though – and although there still is not any hope for his ultimate survival, he’s doing his best to keep his brothers incubating a little bit longer. We did not get a size on him but it’s very obvious that he’s much smaller; the hope is just that he can hold out a while longer and not negatively affect Baby B in any way. The doctor believes that the cause of his demise is related to a placental issue; not a developmental issue or anything of that nature. He continues to grow, just at a very slow rate and not nearly enough to be able to sustain life.
One of the drugs that I am on to stave labor off (indicin) might be starting to have an effect on the amniotic fluid around both B&C, which is a known side effect of this medication. By going off of the indicin, the fluid will replenish itself within a few days so there is a possibility that I will go off of it for a short while in the coming days. We’re going to look again tomorrow or Friday and see if it still looks like the fluid level is decreasing and make a decision at that time. If I do go off of that medication, hopefully labor will not prevail, but if it does kick up again, there are a few other drugs that we can use to quiet things down again. Hopefully I won’t get “magged” again but even if I did, we know that it works and hopefully it would continue to buy us some more time.
My cervix is still holding pretty well but has dilated slightly (only to 1 cm) so I’m taking it extra easy trying to keep it from going any further for the moment. Not sure I have any control over that but mentally, it feels better if I try to stay as flat as can be.
Only 18 more days until the 28 week mark – at least we’re in the “teens” now and out of the 20’s. However, if the babies decided to come now, they have a very good chance at survival and a healthy life. Time is precious and we’ll keep holding as long as we can! Almost 25 & 3!
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
If you can't laugh at yourself, you'll go nuts!
I guess time makes things better and eventually, we can start to laugh and smile again. Sure, there are the tough days but there is usually some comic relief throughout the day. I live for those moments.
For instance, today was a “shower day” for me. Well, apparently I’ve been in denial about looking at myself in the mirror until this morning when my belly “caught my eye”. DEAR GOD – it’s huge! I’m used to looking at it laying down, covered up, and on my side. What a difference looking at it standing up, naked, head on. WOW. And here's the kicker, my boobs are now resting on my belly (sorry to the men who are reading this, earmuffs). Now, I know those of you who have had babies are shaking your head laughing at me – because I’m sure that everyone has this same realization at some point in their pregnancy. But it does appear to me that since I’ve been here, I’ve doubled in size. Yep, I have that waddle – and the slow moving turtle walk. And yes, I grunt every time I try to get up or lay down. Guess that is all normal. It’s just that I somehow missed two weeks of growth….
I haven’t much mentioned all of my awesome nurses – but they are really the ones that keep me going when I’m here alone most of the day. Hearing about their trials, tribulations and life’s frustrations makes you realize that life is just as normal as always out there and these awesome women are just working to make a living like the rest of us. But with lots of compassion and kindness. I haven’t come across a nurse yet that I didn’t like. Trust me, there are big thanks in store for all of them when we get out of here. You know how sometimes you wish you chose a different career path? Well, this experience has really made me think about wanting to be a L&D nurse. They rock!
Something kinda funny happened yesterday afternoon. There was an irregular shift change at 3pm yesterday and the very first nurse I had back when I got admitted to the hospital for the first time at 19 weeks was my nurse again. I had not had her since that first day when I was scared out of my wits to be here. She was awesome that day – and yesterday too. But I had to laugh at her yesterday.
She wanted to weigh me – aye! I have been getting weighed every day or two up to now due to some of the hypertension issues that they are trying to keep an eye on. By the way, I lost 12 pounds in water weight between Friday and Sunday last week – pretty amazing huh? I can now see my knees again…I’ve gained a total of about 26 pounds so far. Not so bad; but I’m sure it’s going to start packing on now since I’m rolling (literally) into my third trimester.
Anyway…back to my story. So, this cool bed that I am in is an air bed and blows up and deflates regularly to avoid bed sores etc. It also has a scale so that you can be weighed while laying down. I’m working on figuring out a way to get one of these at home when I make it back there eventually. So in an effort to try to zero out the scale on the bed to weigh me, she hit some “WRONG” button and the entire bed began to inflate; especially the lumbar part.
Now, picture this; I cannot lay on my back so I’m always on my side. As the bed begins to inflate, my body is contorting in a way that is physically impossible. I began yelling & laughing that it was inflating and the two of us proceeded to laugh so hard we could not even talk. She had no idea what button she hit to inflate it, therefore could not figure out how to deflate it. She ran out of the room in search of the “maintenance man” which is a particular problem since I am in a hospital gown and can’t exactly spring out of bed to let him figure out the problem. Not to mention these really stylish knee high TEDS that I have to wear to help my circulation. Ever seen them? Chuck really LOVES them – NOT! After about 10 minutes of laying in a terribly wrong position, I called her phone and suggested that we just unplug the bed and maybe it would reset itself. Thank god it worked – within a minute or so, the bed was back to it’s comfy old self. We got a good laugh out of it. And no maintenance man to try to hide from.
Got my IV out today which is a big step. They left the saline lock there so in case I need an IV, it’s there to use. But I’m disconnected from the other appendage that I’ve been trailing around with me, aka – the IV pole. It’s also known as the sleep interrupter since undoubtedly, every night it beeped for some reason – either needed to be refilled or I was lying on the IV line making the fluids cut off. I feel like a free woman – between that and the fact that I have my own nightie on today instead of a hospital gown, I feel liberated! Until tomorrow….
For instance, today was a “shower day” for me. Well, apparently I’ve been in denial about looking at myself in the mirror until this morning when my belly “caught my eye”. DEAR GOD – it’s huge! I’m used to looking at it laying down, covered up, and on my side. What a difference looking at it standing up, naked, head on. WOW. And here's the kicker, my boobs are now resting on my belly (sorry to the men who are reading this, earmuffs). Now, I know those of you who have had babies are shaking your head laughing at me – because I’m sure that everyone has this same realization at some point in their pregnancy. But it does appear to me that since I’ve been here, I’ve doubled in size. Yep, I have that waddle – and the slow moving turtle walk. And yes, I grunt every time I try to get up or lay down. Guess that is all normal. It’s just that I somehow missed two weeks of growth….
I haven’t much mentioned all of my awesome nurses – but they are really the ones that keep me going when I’m here alone most of the day. Hearing about their trials, tribulations and life’s frustrations makes you realize that life is just as normal as always out there and these awesome women are just working to make a living like the rest of us. But with lots of compassion and kindness. I haven’t come across a nurse yet that I didn’t like. Trust me, there are big thanks in store for all of them when we get out of here. You know how sometimes you wish you chose a different career path? Well, this experience has really made me think about wanting to be a L&D nurse. They rock!
Something kinda funny happened yesterday afternoon. There was an irregular shift change at 3pm yesterday and the very first nurse I had back when I got admitted to the hospital for the first time at 19 weeks was my nurse again. I had not had her since that first day when I was scared out of my wits to be here. She was awesome that day – and yesterday too. But I had to laugh at her yesterday.
She wanted to weigh me – aye! I have been getting weighed every day or two up to now due to some of the hypertension issues that they are trying to keep an eye on. By the way, I lost 12 pounds in water weight between Friday and Sunday last week – pretty amazing huh? I can now see my knees again…I’ve gained a total of about 26 pounds so far. Not so bad; but I’m sure it’s going to start packing on now since I’m rolling (literally) into my third trimester.
Anyway…back to my story. So, this cool bed that I am in is an air bed and blows up and deflates regularly to avoid bed sores etc. It also has a scale so that you can be weighed while laying down. I’m working on figuring out a way to get one of these at home when I make it back there eventually. So in an effort to try to zero out the scale on the bed to weigh me, she hit some “WRONG” button and the entire bed began to inflate; especially the lumbar part.
Now, picture this; I cannot lay on my back so I’m always on my side. As the bed begins to inflate, my body is contorting in a way that is physically impossible. I began yelling & laughing that it was inflating and the two of us proceeded to laugh so hard we could not even talk. She had no idea what button she hit to inflate it, therefore could not figure out how to deflate it. She ran out of the room in search of the “maintenance man” which is a particular problem since I am in a hospital gown and can’t exactly spring out of bed to let him figure out the problem. Not to mention these really stylish knee high TEDS that I have to wear to help my circulation. Ever seen them? Chuck really LOVES them – NOT! After about 10 minutes of laying in a terribly wrong position, I called her phone and suggested that we just unplug the bed and maybe it would reset itself. Thank god it worked – within a minute or so, the bed was back to it’s comfy old self. We got a good laugh out of it. And no maintenance man to try to hide from.
Got my IV out today which is a big step. They left the saline lock there so in case I need an IV, it’s there to use. But I’m disconnected from the other appendage that I’ve been trailing around with me, aka – the IV pole. It’s also known as the sleep interrupter since undoubtedly, every night it beeped for some reason – either needed to be refilled or I was lying on the IV line making the fluids cut off. I feel like a free woman – between that and the fact that I have my own nightie on today instead of a hospital gown, I feel liberated! Until tomorrow….
Some more vices of bedrest
First of all, babies looking good today ~ never thought I would be happy to be awaken with cold ultrasound gel on my belly at 6am but that is usually how my day starts these days. The on call doc usually comes clunking through the door with the big u/s machine around 6-6:30. And it's a welcome sight! That said, the boys are looking good; moving around NON-STOP which is a great thing. Hence, this might be my earliest post yet, at 6:42am since I can't seem to get back to sleep.
Well, my computer has become an added appendage to my body these days. And my latest vices are jigsaw puzzles and Solitaire. I'm going to have to go into recovery when I get out of here. I can't even believe the time that passes each day playing games! TV has not been too high on my list - day time TV after 11am leaves little to be desired actually.
I've read a fair amount of books which has been wonderful. Our local library allows me to reserve books on line so that I can just have one of my helpers go pick them up. Another modern day convenience that I love.
The nurses keep trying to get me to take up knitting; but I think it's a little too late for that. By the time I learn how to do anything worthwhile, the babies will come and it would probably be quite some time before I have the time to pick up the knitting needles again.
Another great suggestion was to start Christmas shopping on line - now that isn't such a bad idea. Why not get a jump start on that - lord knows that we're probably going to have a "gift certificate" Christmas this year anyway so might as well see if I can get some real gifts done in this down time.
They say that 21 days of anything becomes a habit. Well, we're just 6 days shy of 21 days in the hospital at this point. It's becoming habit now; slowly but surely. Time does seem to make things easier - but more than that, it's easier each day when I know that another day under the belt gives better odds to the babies. We're getting there. My next goal is 28 weeks - only 20 more days.
Well, my computer has become an added appendage to my body these days. And my latest vices are jigsaw puzzles and Solitaire. I'm going to have to go into recovery when I get out of here. I can't even believe the time that passes each day playing games! TV has not been too high on my list - day time TV after 11am leaves little to be desired actually.
I've read a fair amount of books which has been wonderful. Our local library allows me to reserve books on line so that I can just have one of my helpers go pick them up. Another modern day convenience that I love.
The nurses keep trying to get me to take up knitting; but I think it's a little too late for that. By the time I learn how to do anything worthwhile, the babies will come and it would probably be quite some time before I have the time to pick up the knitting needles again.
Another great suggestion was to start Christmas shopping on line - now that isn't such a bad idea. Why not get a jump start on that - lord knows that we're probably going to have a "gift certificate" Christmas this year anyway so might as well see if I can get some real gifts done in this down time.
They say that 21 days of anything becomes a habit. Well, we're just 6 days shy of 21 days in the hospital at this point. It's becoming habit now; slowly but surely. Time does seem to make things easier - but more than that, it's easier each day when I know that another day under the belt gives better odds to the babies. We're getting there. My next goal is 28 weeks - only 20 more days.
Monday, August 07, 2006
Anxiety 101 (again)
I think somewhere way back I already have a post titled Anxiety 101 - I believe it was back when we first started to believe that we had three babies on the way - and I was getting ready to register; I felt very overwhelmed way back then. Little did I know, I would find out the true meaning of anxiety.
Call me a wimp, a baby, or just plain spoiled - whatever you want. Up until last night, I had not spent the night here at the hospital alone. Someone, either Mom or C. was with me every night. It was long past time that I tried this overnight thing on my own. I'm 36 years old for crying out loud! It was just a very big step to take, considering in the past when things have gone haywire, it's been during the night. Well, we did it. The boys and I flew solo last night and did fine. Huge hurdle. I would be remiss if I didn't say that a good part of my feeling comfortable for the night was due to my awesome nurse, Cathy. She knew my anxiety level and took some extra time to be my 2nd Mom for the night - that in itself made things easier. Nurses are amazing people.
That's not to say that company overnight once in a while won't be nice - it gets a little lonely at times and to look over and see someone on the couch is comforting. But for now, I'll be helping to save the back's of Mom and C. and try this thing alone this week. I am ever thankful for the slumber party nights we have had - and lord knows, I would not have made it through these first 2 weeks without having company at night. I just know that the little couch is much less than comfy; particularly for a 6 foot tall man.
Thanks Mom for the many nights of chit chat and company - and C., as always, your presence here is most comforting too; I feel like a big girl today having done it on my own. I hope I can hold strong!
The doctor was in this morning and the babies all look good. No change. It's a miracle in the works, that is for sure. 25 Weeks and holding...
Call me a wimp, a baby, or just plain spoiled - whatever you want. Up until last night, I had not spent the night here at the hospital alone. Someone, either Mom or C. was with me every night. It was long past time that I tried this overnight thing on my own. I'm 36 years old for crying out loud! It was just a very big step to take, considering in the past when things have gone haywire, it's been during the night. Well, we did it. The boys and I flew solo last night and did fine. Huge hurdle. I would be remiss if I didn't say that a good part of my feeling comfortable for the night was due to my awesome nurse, Cathy. She knew my anxiety level and took some extra time to be my 2nd Mom for the night - that in itself made things easier. Nurses are amazing people.
That's not to say that company overnight once in a while won't be nice - it gets a little lonely at times and to look over and see someone on the couch is comforting. But for now, I'll be helping to save the back's of Mom and C. and try this thing alone this week. I am ever thankful for the slumber party nights we have had - and lord knows, I would not have made it through these first 2 weeks without having company at night. I just know that the little couch is much less than comfy; particularly for a 6 foot tall man.
Thanks Mom for the many nights of chit chat and company - and C., as always, your presence here is most comforting too; I feel like a big girl today having done it on my own. I hope I can hold strong!
The doctor was in this morning and the babies all look good. No change. It's a miracle in the works, that is for sure. 25 Weeks and holding...
Sunday, August 06, 2006
24 & 6 - Each day counts!
One more day until 25 weeks - at midnight tonight, we hit the 25 week mark. It's been said that every additional day after 24 weeks adds an additional 6% to the survival rate of the babies. I've been told a few different things about the survival rates at 24 weeks but overall, it's about 50% I think. That means, by adding 7 more days, at 6% per day, we're looking at some good odds for survival if the babies came in the next 24 hours.
The sonogram this morning looked good - the boys are growing well and I've noticed a LOT of increased movement over the last 24 hours. My cervix is slightly changed but according to Dr. H, nothing too significant so that is a good thing. My blood pressure is slightly elevated and has been creeping up very slowly over the last few days so they are doing some PIH (Pregnancy Induced Hypertension - aka Pre-eclampsia) testing today to be sure my liver enzymes are in check. This is VERY common with multiple pregnancies however a little early for the stage I am in, particularly on bedrest. That said, I'm very glad they are on top of this as some of you might remember that Mom & Dad lost twins due to pre-eclampsia (before I was born). There is a hereditary link there so we couldn't be happier that they are watching so closely.
Last night we had a little birthday party for Dad here in my room. We had pizza and ice cream cake - it was the most I have eaten since I've been here so it's good that my appetite is coming back. Perhaps that accounts for more baby movement as well - they are eating better! If it's any indication of how active these babies will be later in life, we're in trouble! Baby C is all over the place all of the time - I thought babies slept most of the time in utero - not these guys!
We'll hope for another quiet day today and tonight. I get another shower today so that certainly will be the highlight of the day! Every day is such a blessing.
UPDATE:
Bloodwork appears to have come back OK. Platelets are up (good thing) & white Blood Cell Count down (good thing, probably means that the UTI I have been fighting is on it's way out). My liver enzymes are still reading kinda weird but apparently nothing to be alarmed about right now. I'll take it for today!
The sonogram this morning looked good - the boys are growing well and I've noticed a LOT of increased movement over the last 24 hours. My cervix is slightly changed but according to Dr. H, nothing too significant so that is a good thing. My blood pressure is slightly elevated and has been creeping up very slowly over the last few days so they are doing some PIH (Pregnancy Induced Hypertension - aka Pre-eclampsia) testing today to be sure my liver enzymes are in check. This is VERY common with multiple pregnancies however a little early for the stage I am in, particularly on bedrest. That said, I'm very glad they are on top of this as some of you might remember that Mom & Dad lost twins due to pre-eclampsia (before I was born). There is a hereditary link there so we couldn't be happier that they are watching so closely.
Last night we had a little birthday party for Dad here in my room. We had pizza and ice cream cake - it was the most I have eaten since I've been here so it's good that my appetite is coming back. Perhaps that accounts for more baby movement as well - they are eating better! If it's any indication of how active these babies will be later in life, we're in trouble! Baby C is all over the place all of the time - I thought babies slept most of the time in utero - not these guys!
We'll hope for another quiet day today and tonight. I get another shower today so that certainly will be the highlight of the day! Every day is such a blessing.
UPDATE:
Bloodwork appears to have come back OK. Platelets are up (good thing) & white Blood Cell Count down (good thing, probably means that the UTI I have been fighting is on it's way out). My liver enzymes are still reading kinda weird but apparently nothing to be alarmed about right now. I'll take it for today!
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Watch out, here comes a belly shot....
This was taken very quickly yesterday after my heavenly 10 minute shower. No more naked belly shots like before - sorry gang! Here we are at 24 weeks and 4 days.
Nothing like being an Aunt!
It's amazing how a little peanut can brighten your spirits. I have photos of all of my nieces and nephews here on my bulletin board and on my computer that I can see each day. But nothing is as good as the real thing!
Friday, August 04, 2006
Growth is Good!
Just a quick update for tonight. Saw Dr. L tonight (peri) and he did a quick doppler on the boys. It's still hard to see Baby A very well but his heartbeat was still ticking. Baby B is about 1 lb, 6 oz and Baby C about 1 lb 8 oz. There is a margin of error there though so those weights are not nearly precise but we'll take it!
There is some concern about one of the drugs that I am on now which is being used to hold off contractions; it can have a negative affect on the amniotic fluid (it can decrease fluid, however this is not the culprit with Baby A). It can also affect one of the ducts in the babies hearts. They are keeping an extra eye on both of those things now, probably every 2-3 days. Have I mentioned how lucky I feel to get to see these boys at least once a day, sometimes twice?!
We are still happy to see Baby A hanging in there for the sake of his Mommy and brothers - he's a fighter. My ultimate enemy at the moment is going into labor again, but if that happens, they will do all that they can to stop it.
For now, I'm holding my own and things have been quiet. That can turn in a matter of one hour though so we'll continue to hope and pray that this old body of mine can hold out a while longer! One more batch of steroids on Sunday/Monday which would be a nice reassurance ~ from then on, it's a waiting game. And that just seems to be the hardest part.
One of the highlights of my hospital stay so far was a visit from my niece Emily today. We were able to get special permission (I'm shmoozing the nurses) to allow her to come for a visit today; as always, she brightened my spirits so much and was such a happy little love bug. I'll hold on to that visit for the next week - until I can shmooze some more and get her back again! We took some pictures so will try to post them over the weekend sometime.
Good weekend to all!
There is some concern about one of the drugs that I am on now which is being used to hold off contractions; it can have a negative affect on the amniotic fluid (it can decrease fluid, however this is not the culprit with Baby A). It can also affect one of the ducts in the babies hearts. They are keeping an extra eye on both of those things now, probably every 2-3 days. Have I mentioned how lucky I feel to get to see these boys at least once a day, sometimes twice?!
We are still happy to see Baby A hanging in there for the sake of his Mommy and brothers - he's a fighter. My ultimate enemy at the moment is going into labor again, but if that happens, they will do all that they can to stop it.
For now, I'm holding my own and things have been quiet. That can turn in a matter of one hour though so we'll continue to hope and pray that this old body of mine can hold out a while longer! One more batch of steroids on Sunday/Monday which would be a nice reassurance ~ from then on, it's a waiting game. And that just seems to be the hardest part.
One of the highlights of my hospital stay so far was a visit from my niece Emily today. We were able to get special permission (I'm shmoozing the nurses) to allow her to come for a visit today; as always, she brightened my spirits so much and was such a happy little love bug. I'll hold on to that visit for the next week - until I can shmooze some more and get her back again! We took some pictures so will try to post them over the weekend sometime.
Good weekend to all!
TGIF
Well, 24 weeks and 4 days, and counting. Babies looked good this a.m. I've been taken off some of my daily monitoring equipment (they were monitoring my contractions all day and all night up until yesterday) so it feels good to have a few less wires connected to my body. They are now allowing me a sitting shower (<10 minutes) every other day if I want it. The small things in life huh? I think I'll take them up on that!
I'm finally getting over the UTI/Bladder infection that I got from the cathetar; and we're getting a handle on my nausea from all of the medications. All in all, I'm starting to feel a little bit better and get my appetite back. The babies are growiing a lot now - my belly is rediculously large. It's amazing how I've just laid in bed for the last 6 weeks and my belly is still growing. Pretty amzing.
Hoping to see the perinatologist today again and get some more measurements on the kids. Based on the size of my belly, I feel like they should be 3 pounds each but I know that is a silly thought. They are probably a bit under 2 lbs each now; they still have some growing to do!!
I'll post later if we get any more significant updates. Hoping for a good quiet weekend so we can hit that 25 week mark! Take care all and hope you all are staying cool in this brutal weather.
I'm finally getting over the UTI/Bladder infection that I got from the cathetar; and we're getting a handle on my nausea from all of the medications. All in all, I'm starting to feel a little bit better and get my appetite back. The babies are growiing a lot now - my belly is rediculously large. It's amazing how I've just laid in bed for the last 6 weeks and my belly is still growing. Pretty amzing.
Hoping to see the perinatologist today again and get some more measurements on the kids. Based on the size of my belly, I feel like they should be 3 pounds each but I know that is a silly thought. They are probably a bit under 2 lbs each now; they still have some growing to do!!
I'll post later if we get any more significant updates. Hoping for a good quiet weekend so we can hit that 25 week mark! Take care all and hope you all are staying cool in this brutal weather.
Thursday, August 03, 2006
We're still here, hanging in
It's been a few days since I posted last; things are about the same as they were at my last post. The babies are still doing well and my cervix seems to be holding up well too; I think my doctors are shocked that we're still here. C. continues to push me along, wanting to get 10 more weeks out of me. I think that is a bit over ambitious but we'll go as far as we possibly can. Today marks 24 weeks and 3 days.
It's been a tough few days emotionally ~ being in the hospital definitely takes it's toll. I miss the outside world tremendously but just have not had the spirit or strength to reach out just yet. I miss work, I miss friends and I miss family - so much. It's amazing how hard it is being removed from the real world. I am not looking for sympathy or complaining, just trying to get my arms around how I will get back into the swing of things once the time comes and I get out of the hospital. Not being in your own home for an extended period is very strange - and without your own things. I most definitely have a true appreciation for my life and everything in it. One might think that this is just a short vacation but not the same. I miss my kitties like crazy - and just miss the simple things like sleeping in bed with my husband and having a quick dinner together.
Daily I feel guilty for being out of touch with people - but right now, I don't have the energy to reach out. That said, I hope that any of you who have been keeping up via this blog understand how much each and every one of you mean to me and how much I can't wait to get back to real life someday. For now, this is my job - to grow babies. And boy, let me tell you, they are growing! As we speak there is a big fat head poking out of the left side of my belly - Baby C certainly has a mind of his own!
Thank you for your continued emails, emotional support and cheerleading. I do read your messages daily - although I don't always have it in me to respond, I want you all to know how much your messages mean to me. I am blessed to have so many understanding people surrounding me who care enough to continue to cheer us on. THANK YOU!
It's been a tough few days emotionally ~ being in the hospital definitely takes it's toll. I miss the outside world tremendously but just have not had the spirit or strength to reach out just yet. I miss work, I miss friends and I miss family - so much. It's amazing how hard it is being removed from the real world. I am not looking for sympathy or complaining, just trying to get my arms around how I will get back into the swing of things once the time comes and I get out of the hospital. Not being in your own home for an extended period is very strange - and without your own things. I most definitely have a true appreciation for my life and everything in it. One might think that this is just a short vacation but not the same. I miss my kitties like crazy - and just miss the simple things like sleeping in bed with my husband and having a quick dinner together.
Daily I feel guilty for being out of touch with people - but right now, I don't have the energy to reach out. That said, I hope that any of you who have been keeping up via this blog understand how much each and every one of you mean to me and how much I can't wait to get back to real life someday. For now, this is my job - to grow babies. And boy, let me tell you, they are growing! As we speak there is a big fat head poking out of the left side of my belly - Baby C certainly has a mind of his own!
Thank you for your continued emails, emotional support and cheerleading. I do read your messages daily - although I don't always have it in me to respond, I want you all to know how much your messages mean to me. I am blessed to have so many understanding people surrounding me who care enough to continue to cheer us on. THANK YOU!
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