Random updates

Well, not much specifically to post about but thought I would just do a quick update. It's a rainy Sunday so enjoying relaxing and listening to the rain.

I got to meet one of my online friends yesterday in person. It was awesome! She's such a great woman - we've known each other for almost 2 years now as on line friends and to meet her and get to talk face to face was the best. We chatted for a few hours and could have talked all day I think. Cilla, if you read this, it was wonderful seeing you and I sure hope that this next cycle is it for you. I know it's been so hard for you and it breaks my heart to see you still struggling. Keep that faith and hope alive - your time is coming, I promise! I never thought I would get here either...it's going to work! Here's a woman who has endured several losses and comes to meet me (with a big ole' pregnant belly) and brings me a basket full of baby gear. I was overwhelmed with thanks and especially love the book that you picked out for us. I can't wait to read it with the boys.

Speaking of books, my dear Aunt sent me a book too this week. I started reading it yesterday and it's awesome! It's a book for Mom's about what children need - and the bottom line is "Love". It's an especially meaningful book #1 because my Aunt Kathy thought to get it for us from a dear friend of hers, and #2 because it is written by a woman named Carol, who is currently struggling with Cancer. She wrote the book before she got sick, however she wrote me the most beautiful message in the front of the book! This, despite her own struggles with her terminal illness. People never cease to amaze me - the amount of love, compassion and caring that people are able to give to other human beings, despite their own struggles is amazing. I can't wait to get back to the book - it's the perfect rainy day for it today too. My heartfelt thanks to Kathy & to Carol for arming me with such a wonderful parenting strategy!

Well, the twins are sitting on one of my organs I think - I can't tell if it's my liver, kidney or bowels but it's definitely something! It comes and goes so I think it's definitely related to their moving around and occasionally I get a kick that takes my breath away. Can you imagine what it will be like in 10 more weeks? They are going to be going around and around like a washing machine, jockying for space in there! They are moving a lot now so it's fun to feel them. Chuck hasn't been able to feel them yet though - everytime I try to have him feel them, they quiet down.

My baby shower is coming up next weekend. My anxiety level has gone down a bit but I'm still a bit uneasy. I think it's because there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of the possibility of something happening to these little guys. I guess that is normal after what we have been through. I'm not dwelling on that - but it does cross my mind. I know we have to get the shower done earlier than normal so that we have time to get things organized though. If, God forbid, something happens, we'll be OK. Just thinking about the shower gets me a bit teary eyed. I can't wait to see my college girls that are making it into town. And so many other people that have been so supportive of Chuck and I over the last few years will be there too. All of those who have prayed for us and sent us well wishes ~ we'll all be in the same place together. That is overwhelmingly special...

Mom, you're going to have to be my rock. You've been with me every single day of this journey and you are going to have to help pull me through without being an emotional basketcase. I'm hoping that I will surprise myself but we'll see.

The nursery is coming along - just waiting now for the cribs. They should be shipped early this week so hopefully they will make it here before the weekend. I would love to have the nursery finished before the shower. Apparently the cribs aren't too hard to put together (according to the lady I got them from) so hopefully it won't take days to get them assembled.

We have another peri appt tomorrow - we'll get some new measurements of the boys and see how they are doing. As always, looking forward to that. I'll post some more updates tomorrow. For now, going to enjoy this lazy Sunday and kick back.