Boy, this is humbling!

Day #1 house rest, accomplished. Not nearly as easy as one would think. When I got the orders yesterday that I was "done working", it didn't seem to phase me too much. In fact, I was on such a high over seeing my boys and hearing such good updates on them that I'm not sure I really even processed "no more work". It wasn't until this morning that I melted down and it hit me. I'm done working (at the office). It's much earlier than I anticipated ~ and I thought I was prepared. Much to my surprise, I don't think I was really emotionally prepared. When I lost it this morning over dropping some things on the floor, I realized that this was a major change and I obviously needed to let it sink in a bit more.

Mom spent the day with me today and we were able to talk through a lot of this. It seemed so overwhelming earlier today and tonight, I feel like I've got more of a plan. I spent the day today really laying low and working on my laptop. I got a good amount of work done which was great - it's going to be very do'able.

Earlier today I was beating my body up for failing me - again. I thought I would make it much longer than 19 weeks before being restricted. I wasn't quite ready to stop working yet. But I was all wrong. Mom quickly reminded me that my body has done, and continues to do, something that it's really not "made" to do - carrying three babies is not a usual occurrence. So I'm straightened out now - and back to appreciating my body for working as hard as it has and growing three perfect baby boys. What a miracle. And really, there isn't much left for me to do to get organized ~ it's now my job to grow babies and be the incubator. I'm hoping that this quiet time will give me a chance to rest & stock up on sleep. After all, in no more than 16 short weeks, my miracles will arrive, God willing. I can do anything for 16 weeks! Can't I?

C. is working on getting adjusted to doing some housework things, grocery shopping etc. It will take a while to get into a routine but we'll get there. I'm thankful that I'm slightly mobile and able to make meals as I need to and shower and potty when needed. Could be worse; and it just might get that way at some point. Doc appt tomorrow again so I'll update the latest tomorrow afternoon. Let's hope for positive news. Still don't have the scanner hooked up but hopefully by tomorrow I can post a 3D photo of Baby B & C; the handsome little devils!