Today is your first day of Lacrosse practice - ever. I just waved goodbye to you as you drove away with Daddy for your SCOOPERS practice. And I have tears streaming. I'm all over the place with emotion. I'm so unbelievably excited for you guys to play sports. I'm worried for you to play sports. As a Mom, I don't want anything to happen to you. I'm emotional over this day sports because there was a day 5 1/2 years ago when you were born at 2 pounds that I didn't know if you would ever be able to play sports. I am crying happy tears because I'm so proud of you both and cannot wait to watch you play.
Cole, you are so nervous and I'm nervous for you. We had a pep talk about just doing your best today. You're scared that you will be the only one who doesn't know how to play. You're scared that you won't know anyone. Your shyness is getting the best of you. As I sit here typing and crying, I am praying that you dig deep and believe in yourself. You want me to be there with you at practice today; but I didn't go. I almost feel like I've abandoned you but I stayed back on purpose so that you hopefully realize that you CAN do it. It's so hard not being there by your side but sometimes I think I do more harm than good for you in these situations. I hope I did the right thing.
JD, you are bursting with excitement. To see you like this brings such a big smile to my face! You can't wait to get in there and learn, meet new friends and play. I'm so proud of you.
Although he won't admit it outwardly, Daddy is so excited to be able to take you to practice. I can just tell. He's waited for this day and I know he must be so proud. I don't want to encroach on his time. This is such a special time for Daddy's and thier boys.
One of my favorite things growing up was watching "boys" play sports. I loved it. And now to think that I get to watch my two amazing sons play whatever sport it is that you love - its just awesome. I'm sure there will be days when I feel like the Mommy Taxi has had enough - but I'm embracing this right now and it's one of the things that I've dreamed of for you.
Whatever sport or activity it ends up being that you love, I want you to be passionate about it. I want you to love it so that it's FUN. There's nothing better than seeing you having fun. Your smiles are infectious. I'm leaving shortly to sneak over to practice to watch you. And I can't wait.
The Sequel (later in the afternoon):
I snuck over to practice and found Cole standing with Chuck watching. He was entralled with practice, but couldn't muster up the courage to practice. Apparently Chuck had a hard time getting him to get out of the car when they arrived so he had cold feet all the way there. Good news is, He is dying to go back next week so I think he's still interested, just cautious. We'll see how next week goes.
JD did great and had a ball. It was a 2 hour practice and after an hour, he was freezing cold and his legs were very tired. He asked to stop, which we agreed with. It was a lot of running, and it was about 34 degrees when they started practice. He too is psyched for next weekend's practice so we're really happy for him!
As for Mommy, I'm doing fine too. Emotional but fun day today - I feel so lucky.
4 comments:
Kate, you've brought me to tears. Cole and JD are so blessed to have you and Chuck as their parents. The boys may not excel at the same thing but they will each find their own passion with whatever sport they choose. The boys have the love, guidance and encouragement from their parents and that's all they need. I love all of you so much. Aunt Kathy.
So moving Kate!! LOVE it!! Good luck today!!! XO
Oh, sweetie, memories are being made. Beautiful memories made on the journey of life. While we want to protect our children from all hurt and pain, it is in that very learning process of feeling those bumps, bruises and emotions that bring them to internal fortitude and strength. It's so hard to endure, but necessary. Not all boys want to play sports, and they find their special gifts when they venture into other things that bring them joy, too. It's about accepting their passion, even if it is not our passion. Both will do well wherever life takes them because they have a loving & supportive family. Embrace your tears,Kate, they are symbols of a loving heart and badges of courage.
That was a very good read! Almost brought tears to my eyes also...so proud of Cole and JD!
(Don't ever tell chuckie about the almost tears)
"Big" Joe
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