Monday Ramblings...

It's our first snow day of the year - and the boys first snow day EVER! We even got to drive home in the snow last night from Grammy & Grampy's house. We spent the afternoon there since Daddy is sick - it was either stick it out and take care of C. and pray that the other three of us didn't catch the "crud" or get out of dodge. Sadly, I packed up the kids and scrammed from the house as swiftly and quickly as possible when we figured out that C. was still fighting a fever. We missed him all day and I know he missed the boys watching football with him (but I'm certain he enjoyed the peace and quiet all day long!).

It's one of those typical gray winter days - and I cannot tell you how nice it is to be stuck inside with nothing to do but get down on the floor and play with the babies. I only wish I could just fall asleep right in the middle of playing like they do!

Cole is spending some time today off of oxygen and loving every minute of it. I know it must feel like he's "off leash" now. I opted to leave it off for a few hours this morning just to give him (and me) a break. Hopefully it won't be long now before he comes off of it completely. I took a few pictures of him without his tubes - he looks so different to me without that thing in his nose.

As I sit here in a pile of toys on the floor with two napping babies, I can't help but reflect on where we've been the last 6 months. It's been a wild ride. And there are still days when I feel like I'm just playing house and these kids are not really mine. I don't know if all new Mom's feel like that or it's a function of not really believing after so long that I would really have kids. And they are MINE. Whatever it is, I wonder when it will stop feeling like this? Or will it? Every single day I look at them both in amazement that they are ours - and they are here to stay. I feel so lucky.

It's even better today because I'm home alone with them both and enjoying every single second. My nanny went on vacation to South Beach - and it was perfect timing. This is my last week at home with the kids before going back to work. I think I'm ready to go back - it's been 7 months since I had to bail out unexpectedly. Although I have continued to work throughout my absence in a part time capacity, the routine has been different than I knew it to be for the previous 13 years of my working career. What a big change. I think it will be easier to get back to work to do work, as opposed to trying to do work at home between bottles, crying bouts, spit up cleanups, poopy diapers and the phone ringing. I'll probably get 10 x's as much done in half of the time without interruption - and will be so excited to get back home. Here's a glimpse of my "home office" on my solo days. It's the best home office EVER. That little space of rug, right in the middle - that's my "chair".

Talk to me this time next week and ask me how I'm doing - I pray that I'll be OK when I go back. I sure will miss the boys but since I'm only working 4 hours per day at the office, I'm hoping it will be an easy way to get back into it. We'll see.

Here are a couple more snaps from our day...lots of smiles these days!