Mommy Tears

What a day. Lots of Mommy tears today on so many levels. I always forget how much this day affects me in a sad way too. It sneaks up on me and once I start crying and feeling sad, I remember that I'm missing Calvin, and celebrating the other two.  Calvin tears are healing and usually don't last long.  But they always come....

We gave the kids iTouch's for their birthdays (jury is still out on whether or not this was a good idea) and I heard the kids singing to themselves with head phones on for a good part of the day. It was awesome.  The best song I heard was their Bible camp songs. They were belting them out, knowing every single word, having no idea how loud and carefree they were singing. More tears.

The love and support we had today from our friends and family was amazing. My facebook page was lit up all day today and the kindness overwhelming.  Many posts brought me to tears of joy and thankfulness. We are so lucky to have so many wonderful people in our lives.

We had the best family day today. C. was able to take the day off of work today, despite his pending trip and it was so much fun.  We had a great family day - details to follow.  I didn't take one minute for granted all day.

The anticipating of sending my first baby off to Kindergarten has been looming all day - but I won't lie, it's weighing heavy on me and I'm not sure I'm ready. We'll see in the am.  Regardless, we had a wonderful day today and I am so thankful for it.  Feeling like a lucky, happy Mommy with a full heart.