I thought this day would never come....

"Happy Mothers Day" was never something I thought I would hear - and boy, this years Mothers Day was much different than the last few...I've always wondered what it felt like to celebrate Mothers Day as a real Mom - I'm still not there yet but I'm a little closer than I've been the last few years. Gosh, remembering back to last year, and the year before, after experiencing the loss of babies and "almost" getting to be a Mom, that sure was a hard day. And I thought all day yesterday about my girls who are still struggling. It's such a hard place to be. It breaks my heart to think of those Mom's who are trying so hard to get that baby they so long for. And thinking about the Mom's with sick babies ~ who spent their day in the hospital yesterday with their ailing little ones - my heart goes out to all of them.

Mothers Day is really a cool day - a time to remember our own Mom's and let them know how much they mean to us. What a concept. We laughed because when you're a kid, you wonder "How come Mom gets a special day? When is it kids day?". We always asked that question as kids and got the same answer "everyday is kids day". That could not be any more true! There are never enough words to express to my own Mom how much she means to me. And how much she has done for me. And how much I appreciate her. And how brave, wise and amazing she is. I think about this almost daily and wish there was a way to tell you Mom, how much I love and cherish you. And how lucky I feel to have you as my Mom and my best friend. I love you so much it hurts sometimes. And that's the truth. As we grow older, it only gets better. We've got a bond that can never be challenged, no matter what. That's an amazing thing.

I was overwhelmed with cards, flowers and well wishes yesterday. I didn't expect that at all - afterall, I'm not a real Mom yet. Chuck gave me a sweet card - of course with his usual humor added to it but it touched my heart. It was really a nice day. Having the family over made it a special day ~ relaxing and fun to be with everyone. We had lots of helpers, all of which were the other Moms - it's amazing that on Mothers Day, the Mom's still kick it in and take care of business. Nature of the beast I guess.

Having the kids around was a joy - Emily, RT and Jonathan are such fun to be around. And thinking that we will add three more to the mix by this time next year just gives me a chuckle. It's going to be utter chaos ~ and I can only imagine that I'll have a smile a mile wide that I won't be able to wipe off of my face. That will truly be a special day when we can all be together, with kids, and laugh at the craziness that will be unfolding.

We have a big day coming up - our first appt with Dr. S (local Peri) and we might even find out the sexes of the three amigos. I don't have my heart set on it since it still might be a bit early at 13 weeks, but I'm remaining hopeful. Stay tuned....